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Wow! It's 1:11am. and i can't sleep. I'm staying the night at my sisters tonight. I talked to John! crazy huh? we talked for 1hr and 45minutes It was so great talkin' to him again, it kinda felt like old times ya know? we talked about all kinds of stuff, we were both laughing most of the time, so it was fun. I don't know what to do!!! ahhhh, talking to him really made me realize how much i miss him, i don't even know if he would ever want us to get back together, but i can't be with Jeremy knowing that i'm still in love with John, this sucks ass! I think I jumped into things with Jeremy wayyyy to fast. I don't regret anything, but i wish things would have happened differently. I really need/want to tell Jeremy that I STILL love John, but i don't know how to do that without hurting him, becuz that's not possible. It just scares me because Jeremy has expressed to me so much about how he loves me and that im his dream girl. GGGRRRRR................