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hi. just. saying stuff here.
went to kung fu tonight. had missed all last week. felt like i hadn't been there in a year. chi so THIN, brittle. did a lot of meditating instead of keeping going.
helps though.
had a lot of things going through my mind, including some about some friends i realize tend to suck energy. then sort of realized why and then sort of realized a lot about what hadn't quite been healed when i met the Famous J, that it'd be nice if I could really truly heal before meeting an equivilant again.
This was all in stretching. thought good and long and hard about celebacy and doing it for a while.
thought about some rules that may need to get implemented in this house if my musician and art and label buddies are gonna come around.
1 - No women other than certain ones (this is really ie: no booty call one night stand dates brought into MY house by OTHER people - long story on this one but it sure did sort of ring true)
2 - no alcohol not approved by aaron (and don't get hopes up) - this is again, not about alcohol itself as much as turning my WORK into a drinking party.
i might want to extend these two to no working past a certain time at night too. to work at 1am delegitimizes your work. is this a pretensious hobby to impress 20 year old bimbos, or are you trying to do something?
3 - no drugs. again it's not the drugs themselves, but the transforming not only my work but also my HOME into a haven for escaping (rather than succeeding in) reality. i think altered states are very important, but for the most part, that's not what people are doing, AND it should be respected as the dangerous and involved journey that it is.
4 - DO NOT HANDLE MY WEAPONS OR TRAINING IMPLEMENTS. LEAVE IT IN ITS PLACE. IF AND WHEN YOU COME TO UNDERSTAND THE REASON BEHIND THIS, ASK PERMISSION, AND BE PREPARED TO STILL HEAR A NO.
interesting.
went to kung fu tonight. had missed all last week. felt like i hadn't been there in a year. chi so THIN, brittle. did a lot of meditating instead of keeping going.
helps though.
had a lot of things going through my mind, including some about some friends i realize tend to suck energy. then sort of realized why and then sort of realized a lot about what hadn't quite been healed when i met the Famous J, that it'd be nice if I could really truly heal before meeting an equivilant again.
This was all in stretching. thought good and long and hard about celebacy and doing it for a while.
thought about some rules that may need to get implemented in this house if my musician and art and label buddies are gonna come around.
1 - No women other than certain ones (this is really ie: no booty call one night stand dates brought into MY house by OTHER people - long story on this one but it sure did sort of ring true)
2 - no alcohol not approved by aaron (and don't get hopes up) - this is again, not about alcohol itself as much as turning my WORK into a drinking party.
i might want to extend these two to no working past a certain time at night too. to work at 1am delegitimizes your work. is this a pretensious hobby to impress 20 year old bimbos, or are you trying to do something?
3 - no drugs. again it's not the drugs themselves, but the transforming not only my work but also my HOME into a haven for escaping (rather than succeeding in) reality. i think altered states are very important, but for the most part, that's not what people are doing, AND it should be respected as the dangerous and involved journey that it is.
4 - DO NOT HANDLE MY WEAPONS OR TRAINING IMPLEMENTS. LEAVE IT IN ITS PLACE. IF AND WHEN YOU COME TO UNDERSTAND THE REASON BEHIND THIS, ASK PERMISSION, AND BE PREPARED TO STILL HEAR A NO.
interesting.