I haven't posted in quite some time, but I thought I should, so here goes.
Honestly, my only feeling about this summer (my only feeling that I will put in writing anyway) is that I'm glad it is ending soon. And trust me, I've never actually wished for it to end until this year. Everything has just been so chock-full-of-bullshit. In any case, I am returning to Stonehill in... wow. 12 days. That sounds like... not a long time. And its funny because when my Junior year finally came to a close, I was relieved to the utmost degree to be rid of Stonehill B-S that seemed to "f- up" my entire year.
Now, though, things are... different. I feel personally different. My perspective on everything has pretty much changed. For good as in for the better, and as in forever. So much has happened, all of it only strengthened me. All of the pettiness... I've grown from it. And I've just begun to understand things on a more complete level.
Not to say I don't cry a lot. I still cry. In fact, I almost cried this morning while watching Ellen-- In my defense, it was some sort of Hurricane Katrina special and it just got to me, okay!? But in all seriousness... where was I going with this?
I guess if anyone reads this, I wanted to say Hi. I'm happy. I'm alive. I'll leave you with one of the smartest and most comforting thoughts I can offer. I refer to it pretty much everytime I have any sort of crisis (which is quite often).
Everything has a way of working out. Everything is always going to be okay. Its just the 'getting-to-be-okay' part that is the hardest.