x-posted on MySpace. Emo blog.
So I've been feeling very...empty lately.
And I don't know how to fill the void.
I go to work, and I love work, but as I told Vickie the other day--it's like all I have. That and Serra. If I were to lose either, I dunno what I would do.
And yet, I haven't really been truly happy in a while either. I usually love this time of year, but...it's not making me happy like usual. I feel like I've been acting happy and giggly and bouncy just so people won't worry...but I don't feel that way at all. I've been getting just so angry. Pissed off at the littlest thing.
Part of me just wants to get really really drunk or high or something. And that's not like me at all.
Meh. I dunno what to do. It doesn't help to be so horny all the time either >_>
wow. i haven't made an emo post in a long time. I guess you can't ever outrun your past though, or truly leave it behind, as much as I'd like.
I guess Joe really did fuck me up more than I thought.
And I don't know how to fill the void.
I go to work, and I love work, but as I told Vickie the other day--it's like all I have. That and Serra. If I were to lose either, I dunno what I would do.
And yet, I haven't really been truly happy in a while either. I usually love this time of year, but...it's not making me happy like usual. I feel like I've been acting happy and giggly and bouncy just so people won't worry...but I don't feel that way at all. I've been getting just so angry. Pissed off at the littlest thing.
Part of me just wants to get really really drunk or high or something. And that's not like me at all.
Meh. I dunno what to do. It doesn't help to be so horny all the time either >_>
wow. i haven't made an emo post in a long time. I guess you can't ever outrun your past though, or truly leave it behind, as much as I'd like.
I guess Joe really did fuck me up more than I thought.