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Woo conflicting emotions F.T.L.
I am happy that Serra got the management position at the Palatine Petco, 'cuz it means moar money.
However, something that I have not admitted to anyone (except for one unlikely person who was just there as I was venting) is that I am nervousssssss about her taking the job. Basically it means I won't get to see her as much since we will no longer work at the same place, and this Petco is farther away.
I am happy though because this will probably be the push we (well, mostly I) need to finally move out. We've been saying we want to move out for well over a year and I can't help but feel that I have been the one hindering everythign. I think it's mainly because I am scared. I have never felt confident that I can live on my own. People have told me this over and over again (well, placed doubts in my head). Meh. So much monies. Mum told me she's nervous and even asked if Serra can live on her own for a while (I said I didna know if she could afford a place on her own and that it was highly unlikely, no offense to her on the monies part).
sigh.
On another topic, I have been eating, sleeping and breathing work lately, and putting in some very late days. Burnout is quickly building up. Problem is, when I'm -not- at work, I'm at a loss for what to do. Not a good scenario. Been going home verrrry sore. I hurt so bad some days. Meh.
Anyways I shoudl probably sleep now. Mostly because I have to be at work at 8 and have some hefty projects ahead of me to-morrow. Eep.
I am happy that Serra got the management position at the Palatine Petco, 'cuz it means moar money.
However, something that I have not admitted to anyone (except for one unlikely person who was just there as I was venting) is that I am nervousssssss about her taking the job. Basically it means I won't get to see her as much since we will no longer work at the same place, and this Petco is farther away.
I am happy though because this will probably be the push we (well, mostly I) need to finally move out. We've been saying we want to move out for well over a year and I can't help but feel that I have been the one hindering everythign. I think it's mainly because I am scared. I have never felt confident that I can live on my own. People have told me this over and over again (well, placed doubts in my head). Meh. So much monies. Mum told me she's nervous and even asked if Serra can live on her own for a while (I said I didna know if she could afford a place on her own and that it was highly unlikely, no offense to her on the monies part).
sigh.
On another topic, I have been eating, sleeping and breathing work lately, and putting in some very late days. Burnout is quickly building up. Problem is, when I'm -not- at work, I'm at a loss for what to do. Not a good scenario. Been going home verrrry sore. I hurt so bad some days. Meh.
Anyways I shoudl probably sleep now. Mostly because I have to be at work at 8 and have some hefty projects ahead of me to-morrow. Eep.