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"i tried to kill myself with a lady bic. a pink plastic razor with daisies on it and a moisturising strip. it took forever just to get through my skin. i don't know, i guess i was just tired of being invisible"
so i've decided seeing more of nikki is good for me.
also, having a wonderful boy is good for me. big surprise there.
i've decided that the people who just keep screwing me around and just keep getting forgiven and allowed to do it over and over are going to get told to get fucked. or at least exactly what the things they do/say do to me. baby steps.
and that i'll put a whole lot more effort into being nice and showing gratitude and suchlike to the people who keep being nice, and being around for me whenever i need them and accept whatever bullshit i throw. so, yeah, just generally trying to treat people in a way that they deserve based on the way they treat me. which i don't do. possibly even the opposite sometimes. so i'm starting now.
the theory is, if i write it down here so people can see it and remind me of it. and i can see it and remind myself, then it'll actually happen
so i've decided seeing more of nikki is good for me.
also, having a wonderful boy is good for me. big surprise there.
i've decided that the people who just keep screwing me around and just keep getting forgiven and allowed to do it over and over are going to get told to get fucked. or at least exactly what the things they do/say do to me. baby steps.
and that i'll put a whole lot more effort into being nice and showing gratitude and suchlike to the people who keep being nice, and being around for me whenever i need them and accept whatever bullshit i throw. so, yeah, just generally trying to treat people in a way that they deserve based on the way they treat me. which i don't do. possibly even the opposite sometimes. so i'm starting now.
the theory is, if i write it down here so people can see it and remind me of it. and i can see it and remind myself, then it'll actually happen