Times and change
Its been about 6 months I guess since I've updated here. I found a home on diaryland and I've been there for quite some time now. Almost a year I guess.
Time comes and things change, life changes, emotions change, people change. It is an everyday type of thing I guess. I would like to think I changed for the better side of me. Some may disagree, some may not.
It's not important as long as I am happy with myself. I am happy with myself in certain areas. And in the areas I'm not I'm still working on them. I'm a good person and a lot of people love me, for me. And that alone helps me a lot, especially in the low self-esteem areas. I don't think I'm ugly anymore. I don't call myself fat, or even over weight.
I've found out through time that I can learn how to love my body, and I do. There's a lot about my body that I do love. My eyes, my mouth, my nose, my high cheek bones, my thighs and legs, my hands and well I need not mention the breasts or the other. .. well, *ahem* anyway.
I've come a long way from where I used to be, when I hated my body and myself.
I also know for a fact that I love women more than men. I'm sure it has a lot to do with my childhood and what I suffered through at the evil hands of men, and I am not even remotely attracted to men anymore.
I don't even consider myself bisexual anymore. I am defintely lesbian. And I am proud of who and what I am. How long has that taken me to say? 20 years?
I will be much happier when I am out of this hell hole and back to where I want to be. Back to where time and change takes a better role in my life. I was happy there because of one person, and I'm going back as soon as she comes and gets me. No she isnt a lover, or even a possible lover. She's my friend and she's already taken; but I won't tell you she isn't attractive. She is very attractive, especially her ass (Sorry I had to say it) There's something about a woman having a great ass that you just can't resist grabbing.
Okay, okay, so I'm a pervert. Big deal. I like being a perv, or as my friend Rainna would say, a minx.
I'm a minx and she said she adores that side of me. That makes me giggle like a redundant teenage girl.
I love the way time is changing for a better positive, and I'm looking forward to what's coming next. And no I didn't mean that sexually (even if I wanted it to be) Not everything is about sex, but I agree in saying everything is about emotion and touch. As my darling MIA freind Letti would say, beauty is an emotion, and she was never more accurate. There's a lot of beauty in everything, if you stop and take the time to notice.
Time comes and things change, life changes, emotions change, people change. It is an everyday type of thing I guess. I would like to think I changed for the better side of me. Some may disagree, some may not.
It's not important as long as I am happy with myself. I am happy with myself in certain areas. And in the areas I'm not I'm still working on them. I'm a good person and a lot of people love me, for me. And that alone helps me a lot, especially in the low self-esteem areas. I don't think I'm ugly anymore. I don't call myself fat, or even over weight.
I've found out through time that I can learn how to love my body, and I do. There's a lot about my body that I do love. My eyes, my mouth, my nose, my high cheek bones, my thighs and legs, my hands and well I need not mention the breasts or the other. .. well, *ahem* anyway.
I've come a long way from where I used to be, when I hated my body and myself.
I also know for a fact that I love women more than men. I'm sure it has a lot to do with my childhood and what I suffered through at the evil hands of men, and I am not even remotely attracted to men anymore.
I don't even consider myself bisexual anymore. I am defintely lesbian. And I am proud of who and what I am. How long has that taken me to say? 20 years?
I will be much happier when I am out of this hell hole and back to where I want to be. Back to where time and change takes a better role in my life. I was happy there because of one person, and I'm going back as soon as she comes and gets me. No she isnt a lover, or even a possible lover. She's my friend and she's already taken; but I won't tell you she isn't attractive. She is very attractive, especially her ass (Sorry I had to say it) There's something about a woman having a great ass that you just can't resist grabbing.
Okay, okay, so I'm a pervert. Big deal. I like being a perv, or as my friend Rainna would say, a minx.
I'm a minx and she said she adores that side of me. That makes me giggle like a redundant teenage girl.
I love the way time is changing for a better positive, and I'm looking forward to what's coming next. And no I didn't mean that sexually (even if I wanted it to be) Not everything is about sex, but I agree in saying everything is about emotion and touch. As my darling MIA freind Letti would say, beauty is an emotion, and she was never more accurate. There's a lot of beauty in everything, if you stop and take the time to notice.