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Hay every one! its me, your big sexy friend jimmy.. lol No but how have all have you been? im doing good i guess i mean school sucks but i get to see my friends and relationships i have none, but i get to talk to as many girls i want so my life at this point has good and bad sides to every thing. Im going to get a pheternaty test to prove this one guy is my dad... but iv never met him befor nor talked to hime not even known of him sence like when i was living with cazz and that was just finding out the guy that i thought was my dad was not... but ya im kinda scared about meting him i mean wouldnt you be. im the typ of person that dosnt relly like to bring things up. id rather let them go you know ... and im pissed cuzz i mean when i find stuff out it dosnt rely seem real at first .. untell a lot later when it hits me that this is happening.. i always hold ever thing in. every thing when we left GA to come here i acted like i wasnt sad living my best friend there. When my mom and dad would get drunk and fight and they made me chouse sides or made me the reason "look you made jimmy cry' "your moms just drunk" "your dad is just drunk hunny" and all the yelling. Iv just goten to the point that when its quite i dont here them Screeming any more. Exept in my head they were always yelling at me ...and but i never told any one that nor and i would just cry somtimes and all that time living with just my mom and my dad being around just not coming to see me or any thing.. my mom always telling me hes worthless and SHE wanted him out of our lives completly. my mom is also bipolor so i just found that out and she hasnt been taking her meds ... and its having a real big affect on me iv felt more and more like im ganna bust latly. i almost killed this kid on the buss and hes like 13.. i mean ya he diseves it and no one eles was ganna put him in his place but im like over kill... but he slaped this girl... so i back handed him in to his seat on the buss and grabed him by his neck and ramed his head to the window and told him if he ever tuoched any one like that again i would distroy him..but any way im sorry for just kinda poring thast all on you... i wasnt plaing on saying this much but im ganna stop