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[pretty_polly1]

Damn i so can not wait till sumer is over! im excited about seeing colin. its gonna be diffrent w/ him in my school. i started talking to tom again. I missed talking to him iso i called him up. he makes me laugh like no other person can. im starting to think i have a split personality or something liek that. cause some sides of me want some or feel diffrent than the other side of me and i dont know which side is true. like w/ school i only have 3 years left to decide what to do with my life and that really makes me want to think about it and concentrate but the other side is this "i dont give a fuck" side all i want to do is hang out and party. but other than that im sitting here starting at my boobs. latly they've seemed bigger. cause alex told me not tosleep with a bra on cause its bad for yer boobs (tip for you ladies) and i've been doing that ever since schools out and now i can't fit my hand over my boobs. i used to but not no more. ok enough about my boobies im really missing my music. i feel really out of place. so now i must go and remake all of my cds :( whats up with everyone having fucking xangas you could do so much w/ life journals you can't do alot w/ xangas. i need to change my layout its getting very old. if any one has any ideas hit up the comment link. on another note i've been offed to go out on many dates but i can't go on any of them :( but with the whole boy scene im just waiting. i belive that things you want the most you can't go after and look for them. you gotta wait for them to come to you or at least work for it and with guys i can't be friends with them at first cause if i want to get close i can't because it feels so wrong but if i hook up with some one athat i dont know much about it makes everything more interesting and the two guys that i fell for the most i knew the least about them. you know whose the perfect guy for me...tom green lol hes got a great personality and hes sooo halarious if a guy isnt funny hes really boring i love a guy that has a humurous personality and btw what happened with the tom green show? i miss it
hmm...
im done for the day