I just want to be on my own....
So me and the parents fought today , it hasnt happend in a while , and it overwhelmed me and ive just felt utterly low all day. I hate fighting with them, and i hate that they think i dont want to do anything with myself. im aware of the fact that im not working at this moment , and i still havent gotten my license.but im working to get both of those things. but they just dont want to believe it. so i guess ill have to do it on my own and prove it to them that im capable of not being a total loser. I want so badly to move out, i wish i had a job right now and id go live with heather or move out with steph or someone. arg i just dont want to be dependent on mom and dad any longer , i need to grow up and gain responsiblities. i hate this .. i hate feeling sorry for myself.
On a better note, arons coming to cheer me up for the hour that i can be out , thats another thing .. fucking my mom " you go out during the week , you better be in by ten or your not coming in" FUCK THAT. i dont konw why she just cant leave the garage door up .. oh no a deer might come in there. god were out in the middle of no where , no ones really gonna come hunt down our house and fuck with the cars. but whatever...
im just so overly frustrated and irritated lately. everything is bothering me, i dont really say much about it.but inside im just bottling up things and its not good. i need to talk , let it out. i need to be away from home for a bit.. it only makes it worse being here. it may seem as if im whinging or being a baby about all of this , but i dont care. shit sucks and if you were me then maybe you'd understand. i cant make anyone see how i feel , so no one will really get it. i do this to myself alot , i get down about things and i think to WAY to much. i guess its a flaw. but i cant help it , its just me.
i gotta go though, my love is here. xo
On a better note, arons coming to cheer me up for the hour that i can be out , thats another thing .. fucking my mom " you go out during the week , you better be in by ten or your not coming in" FUCK THAT. i dont konw why she just cant leave the garage door up .. oh no a deer might come in there. god were out in the middle of no where , no ones really gonna come hunt down our house and fuck with the cars. but whatever...
im just so overly frustrated and irritated lately. everything is bothering me, i dont really say much about it.but inside im just bottling up things and its not good. i need to talk , let it out. i need to be away from home for a bit.. it only makes it worse being here. it may seem as if im whinging or being a baby about all of this , but i dont care. shit sucks and if you were me then maybe you'd understand. i cant make anyone see how i feel , so no one will really get it. i do this to myself alot , i get down about things and i think to WAY to much. i guess its a flaw. but i cant help it , its just me.
i gotta go though, my love is here. xo