"man, ill hit a bitch!"
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------->> so scary. =)
okay so last night me liss kyle and robert went to halloween horror nights. hahaha that crap was totally gay. LOL we had fun though. the hunted houses were so freaking scary dude. holy crap. robert and kyle walked in those pieces with their bows up. it was so freaking halirous dude. but yeah i dont like clowns and we had to walk like in this part where there was JUST clowns and i was holding on to roberts body for dear life. and then we went into the actual HHN hunted house and there was like the "IT" clowns + other ones but the "IT" clown is why i dont like clowns...but it was so funny bc it was, kyle first then liss then me and then robert hahah and like we were all in a line like NO JOKE attached to eachother and kyles in front like "man, ill hit a bitch!" and liss and like "ahh..ahh....ahhh!" and i was like "oh shit oh shit shit shit..shit" and roberts like "come on bitches hit me.. man ill got something for your aahh" omgosh it was the funniest thing in the world. so funny. but im so scared of clowns that like when we saw the "IT" part of the thing like my body started shaking. and robert like pulled me off of liss and asked me if i was okay. i was like closing my eyes and said.. "just go." [LOL RUNN BITCH IM SCARRED RUN!!] so he like barreled to the next part of it. it was so crazy. but yeah. it was so funny. omgosh i've never seen me or liss run so fast out of a house like we did. i think we used the boys as hurdels LOL.
anyways i got alot of beads it was really cool. there were so many hot guys..sheesh!!
I MISS DANIEL AND TORE AND RYAN AND CORY AND MICHAEL AND RYAN AND VALA. even tho i saw them on friday LOL man, i wanna like go skating with them one day. or like just chill with them when they go. i cant wait til im 16!! arrgg on my mom for being over protective. big fat black punaughty on her.
i love audg so much. i hope she always knows that! shes my best friend and i dont know what i would do without her. shes always there for me. and i know she loves me. even if im not perfect! <3 i love you beave with all my heart.
i know this one boys taken, and i will not break it up, but i have a little something for him. idk, im remembering the good times we've had. oh well. he's in love with kelly, and im really happy for him. :)
i dont know what to do about guys anymore. im so over everything.. ryan is gone..amanda has to be happy. so just to shut her up, i gave him her. how gay. i cant ever be happy. but its alright. if he was saying he loved her and i just took him away i'd be pissed too. but its his fault bc he didnt say anything about her to me. he prolly just kissed me to get back at her. but i dont care anymore. im just going to stay single and just have fun. i mean i cant really date anyways until im 16 anyways.. so ill just wait til after my brithday to try and put myself out there again. BUT. anyways.
NO MORE GRUNGE. ive setteled it. laid back yes. but i will not look like a boy NO MORE. :) my mom thinks i look so cute when i dress like i little skater. but i only did that friday bc none of my pants were fitting me and i needed to feel like i could breathe in my pants. i love feeling pretty. and yes that requires more of a outfit then just waking up and wearing what i slept in. :)
okay...im going to say something that is so extremly important to me. but im afarid to tell people. [even though i say it all the time. most think im kidding...well im really not.] My biggest fear, is gaining weight. i dont want to be fat. ever. all my life i've been tiny. in kindergarden-6th grade i wore like toddlers clothes or like a size like 8 in girls. thats really small...and from 7-9thish i was like a zero, or a one. when i had to start wearing threes i was so scared. i didnt like it. but i realized i was getting bigger and growing up. so i knew i had to get a little bit bigger at least just be be able to grow up. but now, even some of my threes are like so small. and i wore these girl dickies friday that were size 5..and they were big but HUNG off my hips. they pretty much fit me. i cried before i went to school. i hated it. i wanted to rip them off and shred them.. i was so devestated. i know im skinny, but i FEEL fat. im like 110-113 or 115 pounds. i vary. and i dont like it. i was like 100 or less my whole life. i guess i just need to get through my head that i am growing up and i need that weight. i told my mom about it on my way to melissas yesterday that i feel bad about myself [my weight] and im scared to gain weight and she said that i have her figure when she was growing up. that she was skinny ALL the way until she had kids. she said she always had big boobs and she was tall. and i know im short compared to like daniel or tore, but im not short short. im 5'4 thats a good height for a 15 year old girl. so idk. but i still am afaird to gain it. so i am going to stop eating fast food days on end and start excersising like mad. im going to go to the gym, prolly with sara mac after school everyday and work out. and im going to take hip hop and do tennis in feb, with audgy buggy poo. so i have a plan. but yeah..i still am scared. and i love all my friends that everyday tell me im beautiful or not fat or say im like their "dream girlfriend" because im such a good person. i swear i cant tell anyone in actual words how much i truly LOVE my friends. i love sara mac for understanding and knowing how i feel. i know she went through ALOT and shes been there for me since i told her everything..she didnt say "just shut up"..or "stop it" she said "i know me too, and i understand we'll do whatever u want to help!" i cant tell anyone how good it feels to actually have someone help ME with my problems.
anyways today im babysitting. and i know this is a long entry. please forgive me.
im talking to DJ online, i havent talked to him in a LONG while. and im really proud of him. hes trying really hard to change and be better. and he said hes making alot of progress. im so happy for him. kutos to DJ dude. forreal.
anyways im going to go, i love you guys. thanks for reading it if you did! <3
cheers mate.
, danielle♥
------->> so scary. =)
okay so last night me liss kyle and robert went to halloween horror nights. hahaha that crap was totally gay. LOL we had fun though. the hunted houses were so freaking scary dude. holy crap. robert and kyle walked in those pieces with their bows up. it was so freaking halirous dude. but yeah i dont like clowns and we had to walk like in this part where there was JUST clowns and i was holding on to roberts body for dear life. and then we went into the actual HHN hunted house and there was like the "IT" clowns + other ones but the "IT" clown is why i dont like clowns...but it was so funny bc it was, kyle first then liss then me and then robert hahah and like we were all in a line like NO JOKE attached to eachother and kyles in front like "man, ill hit a bitch!" and liss and like "ahh..ahh....ahhh!" and i was like "oh shit oh shit shit shit..shit" and roberts like "come on bitches hit me.. man ill got something for your aahh" omgosh it was the funniest thing in the world. so funny. but im so scared of clowns that like when we saw the "IT" part of the thing like my body started shaking. and robert like pulled me off of liss and asked me if i was okay. i was like closing my eyes and said.. "just go." [LOL RUNN BITCH IM SCARRED RUN!!] so he like barreled to the next part of it. it was so crazy. but yeah. it was so funny. omgosh i've never seen me or liss run so fast out of a house like we did. i think we used the boys as hurdels LOL.
anyways i got alot of beads it was really cool. there were so many hot guys..sheesh!!
I MISS DANIEL AND TORE AND RYAN AND CORY AND MICHAEL AND RYAN AND VALA. even tho i saw them on friday LOL man, i wanna like go skating with them one day. or like just chill with them when they go. i cant wait til im 16!! arrgg on my mom for being over protective. big fat black punaughty on her.
i love audg so much. i hope she always knows that! shes my best friend and i dont know what i would do without her. shes always there for me. and i know she loves me. even if im not perfect! <3 i love you beave with all my heart.
i know this one boys taken, and i will not break it up, but i have a little something for him. idk, im remembering the good times we've had. oh well. he's in love with kelly, and im really happy for him. :)
i dont know what to do about guys anymore. im so over everything.. ryan is gone..amanda has to be happy. so just to shut her up, i gave him her. how gay. i cant ever be happy. but its alright. if he was saying he loved her and i just took him away i'd be pissed too. but its his fault bc he didnt say anything about her to me. he prolly just kissed me to get back at her. but i dont care anymore. im just going to stay single and just have fun. i mean i cant really date anyways until im 16 anyways.. so ill just wait til after my brithday to try and put myself out there again. BUT. anyways.
NO MORE GRUNGE. ive setteled it. laid back yes. but i will not look like a boy NO MORE. :) my mom thinks i look so cute when i dress like i little skater. but i only did that friday bc none of my pants were fitting me and i needed to feel like i could breathe in my pants. i love feeling pretty. and yes that requires more of a outfit then just waking up and wearing what i slept in. :)
okay...im going to say something that is so extremly important to me. but im afarid to tell people. [even though i say it all the time. most think im kidding...well im really not.] My biggest fear, is gaining weight. i dont want to be fat. ever. all my life i've been tiny. in kindergarden-6th grade i wore like toddlers clothes or like a size like 8 in girls. thats really small...and from 7-9thish i was like a zero, or a one. when i had to start wearing threes i was so scared. i didnt like it. but i realized i was getting bigger and growing up. so i knew i had to get a little bit bigger at least just be be able to grow up. but now, even some of my threes are like so small. and i wore these girl dickies friday that were size 5..and they were big but HUNG off my hips. they pretty much fit me. i cried before i went to school. i hated it. i wanted to rip them off and shred them.. i was so devestated. i know im skinny, but i FEEL fat. im like 110-113 or 115 pounds. i vary. and i dont like it. i was like 100 or less my whole life. i guess i just need to get through my head that i am growing up and i need that weight. i told my mom about it on my way to melissas yesterday that i feel bad about myself [my weight] and im scared to gain weight and she said that i have her figure when she was growing up. that she was skinny ALL the way until she had kids. she said she always had big boobs and she was tall. and i know im short compared to like daniel or tore, but im not short short. im 5'4 thats a good height for a 15 year old girl. so idk. but i still am afaird to gain it. so i am going to stop eating fast food days on end and start excersising like mad. im going to go to the gym, prolly with sara mac after school everyday and work out. and im going to take hip hop and do tennis in feb, with audgy buggy poo. so i have a plan. but yeah..i still am scared. and i love all my friends that everyday tell me im beautiful or not fat or say im like their "dream girlfriend" because im such a good person. i swear i cant tell anyone in actual words how much i truly LOVE my friends. i love sara mac for understanding and knowing how i feel. i know she went through ALOT and shes been there for me since i told her everything..she didnt say "just shut up"..or "stop it" she said "i know me too, and i understand we'll do whatever u want to help!" i cant tell anyone how good it feels to actually have someone help ME with my problems.
anyways today im babysitting. and i know this is a long entry. please forgive me.
im talking to DJ online, i havent talked to him in a LONG while. and im really proud of him. hes trying really hard to change and be better. and he said hes making alot of progress. im so happy for him. kutos to DJ dude. forreal.
anyways im going to go, i love you guys. thanks for reading it if you did! <3
cheers mate.
, danielle♥