Even if I'm powerless, I'll live on strongly in this destiny
Well, a little update is needed I feel. I am pregnant. This is established, but I have decided once and for all to keep the sprog. I'm scared, but very excited. Like everything else I do, I shall take it in my stride and worry about things as they come, because if I've learned anything from other parents, you can never EVER plan things with kids. They come with their own agendas which you don't get even a briefing on. Anyway, things are fine, the father is back from the States a little worse for wear, but in one piece. I'm over the worse of the morning sickness (for now...) and have more or less settled on my craving; Salt and Vinegar crisps. Particually McCoys. Also found Nana Kitade's new album 18 -eighteen- to be one of the best new Jpop albums I've heard in ages. I've told most of my friends and my immediate family who all reacted the way I should've predicted they would; with love and support and the occasional 'Bloody Hell! Really? You?' I was naturally scared to tell my extended family (my Uncles, my Nanny), but they've been cool. I'm so happy my God Father, uncle Nick, was okay to. I was worried about his reaction, being a fairly strict Christian an' all, but he was more than happy to hear the news. He's even going to pray for me and Mike and the baby (I decided NOT to relay the fact that Mike's a pagan) which I found so comforting. I'm still a little bit scared (Hell, who wouldn't be?), but thing is, it's my little baby, my kid, my child. I may be a ditz sometimes (actually I'm worse than ever these days), but I know when to pull myself together and be serious and I know when to really take charge. Kids change you anyway, that much seems pretty clear. I will always be the crazy geek I am now, but with a responsible streak and a child. The best thing I can give my baby, says my uncle Nick, is my time. If anything, I can give it time. No problem.
I still hate my jobs. I'm still at the Argyll and it won't be too bad there, even when I get pretty big, but being heavily pregnant and working at TBS? For-GET it! I'm already finding working there to be unbearable. I felt hot, sick, tired and monumentally BORED. It's the most monotonous job I've ever had; packing books into boxes. Although, I did get all happy and excited last night right at the end of my shift because... Guess which book came on the line to be packed? WINTERSMITH! YAY! I'm ordering my copy at a brilliantly good discount. SCORE! It'll be my birthday present from me to me.
Also, guess when my first scan is? This Friday at 10:00am. Guess when my birthday is? THIS FRIDAY! The bastards! Mind you, it's a neat little birthday present. Yay.
Right. Watching Phantom Menace. Yes, it's as bad as I remember. God I hate Jar Jar.
I still hate my jobs. I'm still at the Argyll and it won't be too bad there, even when I get pretty big, but being heavily pregnant and working at TBS? For-GET it! I'm already finding working there to be unbearable. I felt hot, sick, tired and monumentally BORED. It's the most monotonous job I've ever had; packing books into boxes. Although, I did get all happy and excited last night right at the end of my shift because... Guess which book came on the line to be packed? WINTERSMITH! YAY! I'm ordering my copy at a brilliantly good discount. SCORE! It'll be my birthday present from me to me.
Also, guess when my first scan is? This Friday at 10:00am. Guess when my birthday is? THIS FRIDAY! The bastards! Mind you, it's a neat little birthday present. Yay.
Right. Watching Phantom Menace. Yes, it's as bad as I remember. God I hate Jar Jar.