Longtime no see
It's been a couple of years since I've been on here. I find myself writing more on tumblr or playing in new games. The last year and a half though have been pretty hard to describe.
I lost my dad.
That has single-handedly been the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I can't even manage to explain how losing someone who was so strong, encouraging and important to me feels. There's a hole inside that I feel I'm sitting in the middle of.
Now, as Father's Day approaches for the second time without him (all holidays the first year were a blur) is painful. I want to be angry that it has been a little over a year without him because I don't want it to have been that long. It hurts...and some nights like this I find myself reading old stuff, old emails, and I see the people I've lost touch with---and for someone like me who loves LOVES people, it's hard to know you fall out of touch with even one.
-Ren