i feel like i could walk outside your world and die
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it!
no one really even understands how much i fucking want to run away and NEVER come back. theres not just ONE little thing that i dislike about Michigan. its basically the whole state in fuckin general! its NOT fun here anymore. there are too many people with too many problems. to many selfish people that don't know how to give a flying fuck about anything but money and (i cant believe i'm saying this but..) hoes! every god damn guy in this whole fuckin state looks @ us as 'hoes'... 'sluts'... 'bitches'... i could keep going. but WHY be so damn disrespectful? are you gonna get ass by sayin "damn you look fine"? NO! unless the girls a total fuck over and feels the need to put herself out there. i hate that this place has nothing to do. i sit @ home, and seeing as i'm STILL 15 (and NO ONES GONNA BE HERE FOR MY 16TH BIRTHDAY) i dont do shit! i eat. i sleep. i read. i swim.... i cant leave the house unless its for basketball cause i dont have a car. unless i'm willing to walk which is a crok of shit. i hate making my friends pick me up and i feel bad so i give them gas money... BUT WAIT... THERES MORE! i have my fiends pick me up, we drive somewhere then i end up paying someone ELSE to come see us. its happened like 5 fuckin times this past month. WHY DOES EVERYONE NEED MONEY FOR A 5 MINUTE DRIVE?! if you dont want me in the car cause i dont have money, dont fuckin call me up ot chill. ad i'm not payin anyone else to fuckin drive over to keep a relatiosnhip together, its not my relationship. obviously... cause my relationship with my "boyfriend" is going to hell. GAHH i could go on for hours, i want to rip someones head off. i dont ever see Tommy or Cara. Julias always with Adam or Alora. she leaves in 5 fuckin days and i probably ownt even get to say by to her. i wish i could just disappear for the rest of my life. i dont make a fuckin impact on ANYONE anyways... so whats the point of putting up with allthese stupid little things... all these "stupid little things" get to me fevery fuckin day!! AHHH! i have to go, i could keep going but i'm gonna go mental.... FUCK IT!