May 31, 2004 22:16
Children waiting for the day they feel good.
Michelle won a car today on tv. cargradulations
I, on the other hand was forced to practice a shout out over and over with a pen as a microphone, and then they blew me off. No shout out for Lindsay, just a burned shoulder, and huge scratch down my back and 10 hairs yanked out by a camera man.
But thats okay.
I cry too often these days, and something is wrong with me. mom cried for me and that makes me cry even more and makes it hard to breathe. Today I realized I am a downer. For the next two weeks I plan on withdrawing from social activity excluding the following activities:
Ice Cream Social
Dashboard Confessional
Trl on monday
grad nite/senior breakfast/graduation
senior bbq
and anything with the J
I apologize for my attitude lately, and any attitude occuring the next two weeks. It has nothing to do with anyone but myself.
mom knows and shes not mad at me. instead she deals with other issues that she knows i have problems with.
In all honesty I am about to throw my head in my nova form and write in my composition.