& I'm seconds away...
Last night went to Further Seems Forever with Don. Got sad but had a good time with him. Came home and we feel asleep in my bed for a little while. Nice. I had to get up to go work at the Hurricane Charley thing for SGA. Then had to go to a funeral for my moms best friends dad. Sooo Depressing. I cried so much. Came home and changed. And then me and Don headed to Orlando to see Finch. It was a lot of fun. I had a really good time with him.
But, now im home and I feel so crappy. I hate how things can go so good for so long and then suddenly everything goes down hill all at once. Sometimes I wish my friends we're cooler and didnt hurt my feelings. I wish my boyfriend was nicer sometimes and didnt hurt my feelings. I wish people didn't talk shit about people and then hang out with them. I wish my mom was home with me every once in a while instead of stumbling in at 4 every morning. I wish I spent more time with my family. I wish I had more time for my dad because I know that he loves me more than anything and he's not going to be here forever. Sometimes I hate being around Don's parents bcuz I look at them and think of how lucky Don is and how bad I wish my parents were still together.
But more than anything I just wish that I was good enough for everyone and people would accept me and like me for who I am.
I Love Don more than anything and I'm at the point of needing him. As much as he hurts my feelings, as much as he makes me cry, as much as I dont wanna be with him sometimes, I have to be, I cant let go of him, I cant get away from him. Maybe thats a good thing, maybe night.
Whatever. Good night.
But, now im home and I feel so crappy. I hate how things can go so good for so long and then suddenly everything goes down hill all at once. Sometimes I wish my friends we're cooler and didnt hurt my feelings. I wish my boyfriend was nicer sometimes and didnt hurt my feelings. I wish people didn't talk shit about people and then hang out with them. I wish my mom was home with me every once in a while instead of stumbling in at 4 every morning. I wish I spent more time with my family. I wish I had more time for my dad because I know that he loves me more than anything and he's not going to be here forever. Sometimes I hate being around Don's parents bcuz I look at them and think of how lucky Don is and how bad I wish my parents were still together.
But more than anything I just wish that I was good enough for everyone and people would accept me and like me for who I am.
I Love Don more than anything and I'm at the point of needing him. As much as he hurts my feelings, as much as he makes me cry, as much as I dont wanna be with him sometimes, I have to be, I cant let go of him, I cant get away from him. Maybe thats a good thing, maybe night.
Whatever. Good night.