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Tendonitus so says doctor #4. Now they put me in a wrist splint. I hate feeling/looking like a gimp!
God really does hate me.
I thought I was doing fairly well in managing my finances. Was I ever WRONG!?! I am officially broke, poor, in debt so far over my head I am drowning. No standing on my tip toes this time.
*Thanks mom, yet another undesirable gene I have inherited from you!
I realized today that even though I get lonely sometimes, I am sooo glad that I don't have a boyfriend. Relationships are bull shit. I observe and listen to everyone else that is in one of these things and they are miserable. Some of them have been with their significant others for quite some time, they may even have kids, but they just end up cheating on each other, falling out of love, just existing together for the sake of the kids or for financial security until they can make it on their own.
I fell in love, like, love-love, once. He shattered my heart into a million pieces. I'm sure I could get attached to someone and love them just like I loved him, but why the hell would I want to? Risk. I don't think I'm much of a risk taker any more. Not now that I know what I do and I have been through it. Still, I don't want to live a life of being alone. I don't know. Maybe I'll figure it out when I'm 25.
Tomorrow is my Halloween party. I hope it is all I expect it to be. Usually if I get all excited and looking forward to something it turns to shit.
Kevin, this old man that comes to SnS, gave me some "advice" the other day. "Never get excited." I didn't even have to ask him why. I know all too well.
All for now.
God really does hate me.
I thought I was doing fairly well in managing my finances. Was I ever WRONG!?! I am officially broke, poor, in debt so far over my head I am drowning. No standing on my tip toes this time.
*Thanks mom, yet another undesirable gene I have inherited from you!
I realized today that even though I get lonely sometimes, I am sooo glad that I don't have a boyfriend. Relationships are bull shit. I observe and listen to everyone else that is in one of these things and they are miserable. Some of them have been with their significant others for quite some time, they may even have kids, but they just end up cheating on each other, falling out of love, just existing together for the sake of the kids or for financial security until they can make it on their own.
I fell in love, like, love-love, once. He shattered my heart into a million pieces. I'm sure I could get attached to someone and love them just like I loved him, but why the hell would I want to? Risk. I don't think I'm much of a risk taker any more. Not now that I know what I do and I have been through it. Still, I don't want to live a life of being alone. I don't know. Maybe I'll figure it out when I'm 25.
Tomorrow is my Halloween party. I hope it is all I expect it to be. Usually if I get all excited and looking forward to something it turns to shit.
Kevin, this old man that comes to SnS, gave me some "advice" the other day. "Never get excited." I didn't even have to ask him why. I know all too well.
All for now.