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I think hell may have frozen today. I went to church. (Clarification: REAL church Melanie. LOL)
I did this for my mother. She is all holified now since her baptism and my dad passing on. I believe in God, now, but I just find that most people who go to church are hypocrites. The pastor even pointed this fact out today. It made me angry. He said that several people in the congregation had said that New Orleans deserved their tragedy seeing as how their is so much sin that occurs on "skid row" and Bourbon Street. They make God out to be such a vengeful being. Like, if you defy me, I'm going to send this huge hurricane to fuck up your world. I'm not liking the concept of serving the Lord. I feel that he expects too much from us as human beings who make mistakes and just want to live. I feel that as long as we don't go around killing each other, stealing, raping, just plain horrible crimes, etc. we should be accepted into this "wonderful kingdom" they call Heaven. Just because we have premarital sex, drink alcohol, smoke a little pot, or harbor hatred for someone, we should be punished? God, we are ONLY human. YOU made us this way. Right?
I could go on an all out debate with a preacher.
Besides that, I had a good day visiting with my mom.
Friday, Tim brings in this divorced, father of two, pushing 30, fellow SNS manager to meet me. Prior to knowing his stats, Tim called him a few weeks ago and made me talk to him. He SOUNDED nice and I made the mistake of giving out the digits. He hovered around me for like an hour while I was trying to work, left to go out to dinner with Tim, and came back! He stayed for like another hour. Juan said he was sitting in the office watching me on the cameras! EWWWW!!!! Fuk-Ov creepy old man stalker! He called me twice yesterday, one message, and one call today. I guess the best possible solution is to just answer him, tell him that I am sorry, but he is out of my age range and possesses too much baggage for me to handle.
I have to get to school early tomorrow to make up a test. Need to get my sleep on.
I did this for my mother. She is all holified now since her baptism and my dad passing on. I believe in God, now, but I just find that most people who go to church are hypocrites. The pastor even pointed this fact out today. It made me angry. He said that several people in the congregation had said that New Orleans deserved their tragedy seeing as how their is so much sin that occurs on "skid row" and Bourbon Street. They make God out to be such a vengeful being. Like, if you defy me, I'm going to send this huge hurricane to fuck up your world. I'm not liking the concept of serving the Lord. I feel that he expects too much from us as human beings who make mistakes and just want to live. I feel that as long as we don't go around killing each other, stealing, raping, just plain horrible crimes, etc. we should be accepted into this "wonderful kingdom" they call Heaven. Just because we have premarital sex, drink alcohol, smoke a little pot, or harbor hatred for someone, we should be punished? God, we are ONLY human. YOU made us this way. Right?
I could go on an all out debate with a preacher.
Besides that, I had a good day visiting with my mom.
Friday, Tim brings in this divorced, father of two, pushing 30, fellow SNS manager to meet me. Prior to knowing his stats, Tim called him a few weeks ago and made me talk to him. He SOUNDED nice and I made the mistake of giving out the digits. He hovered around me for like an hour while I was trying to work, left to go out to dinner with Tim, and came back! He stayed for like another hour. Juan said he was sitting in the office watching me on the cameras! EWWWW!!!! Fuk-Ov creepy old man stalker! He called me twice yesterday, one message, and one call today. I guess the best possible solution is to just answer him, tell him that I am sorry, but he is out of my age range and possesses too much baggage for me to handle.
I have to get to school early tomorrow to make up a test. Need to get my sleep on.