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early summer was a whirlwind, casting me higher and higher in a dizzying spiral of busy.
late summer is the opposite, a slow moving tributary, water low in its banks, meandering toward a faster moving river.
this is not to imply that i'm sitting around with oodles of time and nothing to do. i'm still busy. just not as crazy busy as a month or two ago.
and that's nice! but it also takes adjusting, because despite day-to-day feelings, i thrive in busy environments and sort of come to a stuttering halt when i move on to a slower pace.
i really felt that stuttering halt earlier this week. i was lethargic, cranky, and overwhelmed all at once, and that is a very unpleasant combination. lethargic because i was home more than normal, cranky because i wasn't being very productive despite being home with plenty of time to unpack, and overwhelmed by, as usual, the pressure to Get Something Done. thank you, mom, for instilling within me the need to constantly be productive. a mixed blessing to be sure.
however, despite a bumpy week, things did Get Done. danny moved some furniture around and now i can start unpacking! we picked up more shelves, storage pieces, and racks for hanging stuff in the kitchen, meaning there will be places for smaller items around the house. we also picked up his sister's car from paso robles, so no more paying for a rental while his car is in the shop! yay!
aside from trying to just unpack in general, i think my primary focus is going to be locating, sorting, and organizing all my art supplies, of which i have MANY. megamyrin gave me great advice and now i'm just going to find as much as i can and dump it out on the guest bed for sorting and stowing. i haven't given my artistic side much outlet beyond cooking in many months and it's getting pretty fed up. i have this feeling of pressure right behind my sternum, accompanied by cravings to do things like decoupage all the furniture in the house. i need to blow off some creative steam ASAP before i take on a project way too big!
work is still slated to be nice and stable come late august. i am excited at the prospect of having a stable schedule for 6 months or more! and, despite the 4-5 day a week schedule, i will still have time for art! and i do intend to get back into my art.
i don't know when i decided i wasn't an artist, but it was a bad decision. i'm sure i made it for the right reasons, like, "artists never make money so better choose another path!" or, "i need a career my parents will be super proud of!" or, "i can't be an artist in CA i'm not a hippie lulz!" but, in this life, i am an artist. sure i have many mediums - that may be a source of the confusion - but be it sculpture, glass, fabric, decoupage, music or other, i am an artist first and most other things come secondary to that artistic view of life. i intend to embrace my primary nature more.
i can tell the coffee is kicking in because i'm babbling through my fingers. time to move on and do other things!
love kittie
late summer is the opposite, a slow moving tributary, water low in its banks, meandering toward a faster moving river.
this is not to imply that i'm sitting around with oodles of time and nothing to do. i'm still busy. just not as crazy busy as a month or two ago.
and that's nice! but it also takes adjusting, because despite day-to-day feelings, i thrive in busy environments and sort of come to a stuttering halt when i move on to a slower pace.
i really felt that stuttering halt earlier this week. i was lethargic, cranky, and overwhelmed all at once, and that is a very unpleasant combination. lethargic because i was home more than normal, cranky because i wasn't being very productive despite being home with plenty of time to unpack, and overwhelmed by, as usual, the pressure to Get Something Done. thank you, mom, for instilling within me the need to constantly be productive. a mixed blessing to be sure.
however, despite a bumpy week, things did Get Done. danny moved some furniture around and now i can start unpacking! we picked up more shelves, storage pieces, and racks for hanging stuff in the kitchen, meaning there will be places for smaller items around the house. we also picked up his sister's car from paso robles, so no more paying for a rental while his car is in the shop! yay!
aside from trying to just unpack in general, i think my primary focus is going to be locating, sorting, and organizing all my art supplies, of which i have MANY. megamyrin gave me great advice and now i'm just going to find as much as i can and dump it out on the guest bed for sorting and stowing. i haven't given my artistic side much outlet beyond cooking in many months and it's getting pretty fed up. i have this feeling of pressure right behind my sternum, accompanied by cravings to do things like decoupage all the furniture in the house. i need to blow off some creative steam ASAP before i take on a project way too big!
work is still slated to be nice and stable come late august. i am excited at the prospect of having a stable schedule for 6 months or more! and, despite the 4-5 day a week schedule, i will still have time for art! and i do intend to get back into my art.
i don't know when i decided i wasn't an artist, but it was a bad decision. i'm sure i made it for the right reasons, like, "artists never make money so better choose another path!" or, "i need a career my parents will be super proud of!" or, "i can't be an artist in CA i'm not a hippie lulz!" but, in this life, i am an artist. sure i have many mediums - that may be a source of the confusion - but be it sculpture, glass, fabric, decoupage, music or other, i am an artist first and most other things come secondary to that artistic view of life. i intend to embrace my primary nature more.
i can tell the coffee is kicking in because i'm babbling through my fingers. time to move on and do other things!
love kittie