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ha! only let 6 days slip by this time. i am improving!
life, in a nutshell, is comfortably busy. i'm working an average of 4 full days a week, while staying prepared for 5 full days a week. i started a new project today - well, more like i returned to a project that was on hiatus for a while - and i'm feeling very good about it. i'm essentially assisting with the organization of a pretty massive conference/event/gathering that's going down next summer. you can check it out here, although i'm not sure if the website is up to date. it should be.
in addition to this new project, my other clients' website is getting ready to launch, and that's keeping me fairly busy (and occasionally stressed). the web developers are excellent but a bit flaky; my clients are not at all flaky. this leads to tension that i cannot resolve and yet am constantly caught up in. however, i am doing my best to do what i can, and trust the rest to the universe. sometimes that's all anyone can do.
after a bit of a stall, i am losing weight again. stalls are normal - the human body can only lose so much weight (healthily) every week. it was slightly disheartening, because i've seen so many stalls, but i tweaked my food pattern and took certain supplements more regularly, and that kickstarted my metabolism! my arms and torso aren't looking too different; this time it's my legs that are changing. not only can i see muscle lines and curves popping out, certain areas are just getting... bony. like my shins. they're so pointy feeling. it's weird. in a good way.
danny comments every now and again on how weird it is -- all i did was make a few changes, and presto! pounds melt away. i find it weird as well. not because it's happening, but because it's happening to me. i've read countless stories of people who made a few basic changes - the changes definitely vary from person to person - and stuck with them, and afterwards their body was able to do the rest. i always wanted to be that person, but when i tried what they tried, i usually ended up feeling worse. for me, it wasn't eating some weird miracle food, or exercising regularly; i eat frequently, and i don't combine certain foods. that's it. i never in a thousand years would have guessed that would work. but it does. and i'm not perfect about it 100% of the time, i still eat pizza with meat on it and desserts and stuff... but i eat those things so infrequently, i can't even really feel guilty about them like i used to.
the reason i ramble on about these changes in detail is so when i look back - in six months, a year, two years - i can remember the process. i want to look back and say, "oh yeah, that's how it started. and that's when i felt discouraged! and that's when my butt got smaller! that's when i was able to get those new jeans!" for the first time in my life i actually believe i can be lean and small, despite my height and muscles. this is a long, long process -- i plan to actively keep this up until 2011, and reassess then -- but instead of feeling overwhelmed, i constantly think about how i will look in two years time, and i feel inspired.
i like feeling inspired.
still no news on our pre-approval for our housing loan. it's officially past the 45 day mark; it's probably closer to 60 days now. our mortgage broker doesn't make a dime 'til we get a mortgage, so i know she's not stringing us along for any reason, but i simply don't understand why it's taking this long. she says it's normal, because there are multiple people to consider, and it's a federal program, etc etc... i believed that until isaac told me he put in an application for loan pre-approval less than a month ago and has been approved. i don't know Oregon state's rules, i don't know his financial situation, i don't know a lot of things... except he got approved and we haven't yet and that makes me nervous. don't get me wrong though - nervous does not mean despondent. i still believe this loan will go through, fully and completely. i just hope it happens before December 1st so we can get the tax break. that was the whole reason to do it this year, after all.
today is speeding by. danny has a surprise for me this evening, and i can't wait to find out what it is, because he's been lording it over me for something like a month now! i have three hints:
1. it won't change my life, but it's a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
2. it takes place somewhere in the greater SF Bay Area.
3. "cats eyes."
i'm pretty good at piecing things together but i am stumped. less than 6 hours until i find out! i am very excited.
and now i should really get back to this spreadsheet i'm updating. werk!
love kittie
life, in a nutshell, is comfortably busy. i'm working an average of 4 full days a week, while staying prepared for 5 full days a week. i started a new project today - well, more like i returned to a project that was on hiatus for a while - and i'm feeling very good about it. i'm essentially assisting with the organization of a pretty massive conference/event/gathering that's going down next summer. you can check it out here, although i'm not sure if the website is up to date. it should be.
in addition to this new project, my other clients' website is getting ready to launch, and that's keeping me fairly busy (and occasionally stressed). the web developers are excellent but a bit flaky; my clients are not at all flaky. this leads to tension that i cannot resolve and yet am constantly caught up in. however, i am doing my best to do what i can, and trust the rest to the universe. sometimes that's all anyone can do.
after a bit of a stall, i am losing weight again. stalls are normal - the human body can only lose so much weight (healthily) every week. it was slightly disheartening, because i've seen so many stalls, but i tweaked my food pattern and took certain supplements more regularly, and that kickstarted my metabolism! my arms and torso aren't looking too different; this time it's my legs that are changing. not only can i see muscle lines and curves popping out, certain areas are just getting... bony. like my shins. they're so pointy feeling. it's weird. in a good way.
danny comments every now and again on how weird it is -- all i did was make a few changes, and presto! pounds melt away. i find it weird as well. not because it's happening, but because it's happening to me. i've read countless stories of people who made a few basic changes - the changes definitely vary from person to person - and stuck with them, and afterwards their body was able to do the rest. i always wanted to be that person, but when i tried what they tried, i usually ended up feeling worse. for me, it wasn't eating some weird miracle food, or exercising regularly; i eat frequently, and i don't combine certain foods. that's it. i never in a thousand years would have guessed that would work. but it does. and i'm not perfect about it 100% of the time, i still eat pizza with meat on it and desserts and stuff... but i eat those things so infrequently, i can't even really feel guilty about them like i used to.
the reason i ramble on about these changes in detail is so when i look back - in six months, a year, two years - i can remember the process. i want to look back and say, "oh yeah, that's how it started. and that's when i felt discouraged! and that's when my butt got smaller! that's when i was able to get those new jeans!" for the first time in my life i actually believe i can be lean and small, despite my height and muscles. this is a long, long process -- i plan to actively keep this up until 2011, and reassess then -- but instead of feeling overwhelmed, i constantly think about how i will look in two years time, and i feel inspired.
i like feeling inspired.
still no news on our pre-approval for our housing loan. it's officially past the 45 day mark; it's probably closer to 60 days now. our mortgage broker doesn't make a dime 'til we get a mortgage, so i know she's not stringing us along for any reason, but i simply don't understand why it's taking this long. she says it's normal, because there are multiple people to consider, and it's a federal program, etc etc... i believed that until isaac told me he put in an application for loan pre-approval less than a month ago and has been approved. i don't know Oregon state's rules, i don't know his financial situation, i don't know a lot of things... except he got approved and we haven't yet and that makes me nervous. don't get me wrong though - nervous does not mean despondent. i still believe this loan will go through, fully and completely. i just hope it happens before December 1st so we can get the tax break. that was the whole reason to do it this year, after all.
today is speeding by. danny has a surprise for me this evening, and i can't wait to find out what it is, because he's been lording it over me for something like a month now! i have three hints:
1. it won't change my life, but it's a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
2. it takes place somewhere in the greater SF Bay Area.
3. "cats eyes."
i'm pretty good at piecing things together but i am stumped. less than 6 hours until i find out! i am very excited.
and now i should really get back to this spreadsheet i'm updating. werk!
love kittie