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capoeira last night. i told myself i was going to push my limits, seeing as how last week i wasn't sore. well not only did i push myself, but samuka wasn't afraid to make me work and do a bunch of sequences. that's good because it shows i'm improving. it was also good because on top of my efforts, i got a really, really thorough workout. today i find i'm not sore, yet again... i can only deduce (given the workout and the major stretching i did yesterday) that my body is stronger and able to roll with the punches. i am stiff, in a few places, and i have a wicked blister on my left big toe, but i don't feel like my muscles are frozen taffy. this is encouraging.
i'm setting things in motion so i can tell my clients i need about 30 hours a week right now. i'm scared to do this, because let's face it, i've never been really good at asserting myself. but they approached me, and asked me if i'd be willing to commit to them mostly full time, if it meant they gave me enough hours. i said yes. they haven't fully delivered on the hours. so, back to the drawing board.
i can't give an ultimatum (i.e. "more hours or i walk!") because i have nothing to fall back on. i've had more than one conversation with danny, who is a very good sounding board when i get unrealistic, and he's reminded me that i don't do well when i work 40+ hours a week (because it always ends up being 50+) and that i don't do well in offices/corporate situations (because i suffocate). what i'm doing now really is a smart, fun, and intelligent fit for my skillset, and this time of my life. i don't want to lose it.
blizzcon trip in T-7 days and counting. that really snuck up on me. thankfully we got our act together and took care of everything in due time. now, if i can get us to pack wednesday night before 11:59 pm, we will officially have done everything NOT in a rush.
back to work!
love kittie
i'm setting things in motion so i can tell my clients i need about 30 hours a week right now. i'm scared to do this, because let's face it, i've never been really good at asserting myself. but they approached me, and asked me if i'd be willing to commit to them mostly full time, if it meant they gave me enough hours. i said yes. they haven't fully delivered on the hours. so, back to the drawing board.
i can't give an ultimatum (i.e. "more hours or i walk!") because i have nothing to fall back on. i've had more than one conversation with danny, who is a very good sounding board when i get unrealistic, and he's reminded me that i don't do well when i work 40+ hours a week (because it always ends up being 50+) and that i don't do well in offices/corporate situations (because i suffocate). what i'm doing now really is a smart, fun, and intelligent fit for my skillset, and this time of my life. i don't want to lose it.
blizzcon trip in T-7 days and counting. that really snuck up on me. thankfully we got our act together and took care of everything in due time. now, if i can get us to pack wednesday night before 11:59 pm, we will officially have done everything NOT in a rush.
back to work!
love kittie