Christmas Time
"it's the most wonderful time of the year..."
you know, as i begin to type this and listen to 96.5 (KOIT- seasonal music all season long), i almost want to write some analytical paper on the previously stated verse and go off on how we find ourselves more lonely at christmas time than we do at any other time of the year-- including national get laid day (also known as valentines day) and then go off on how so many people get engaged at christmas time b/c it makes the moment memorable and that family is SOOOOO essential during the holidys... except the entire season kids are stuck in school, moms and dads spend all their free time buying way too many presents for everyone they know plus a gift baxket for their mother and half way through christmas day most of the toys are broken, the chinese food from 2 nights ago ends up being breakfast, clothes tags are all over the place, a dead tree stands just asking for a match to light, and paper is everywhere. wow... for some reason, you would almost think christmas is about buying the most expensive present and hoping to god its not returned.... but i won't... i won't complain how christmas time is all about families... that get into arguments when the mashed potatoes do not taste the exact same way great great great great grandma made em when the family had to pioneer over from the east coast to the west coast and spent thanksgiving in the snow and she made the entire thanksgiving and christmas dinners out of food she gathered, caught, and killed herself. like i said... im not gonna do that... b/c its not worth my time.
i will however talk about how lucky I AM and how grateful I AM and how my christmas is all about family... actually i lied... im gonna go off onthe fact that christmas is family time and for the other 11 months they are the strangers with related blood that gave shitty christmas presents last year.
i cannot believe that people only think of christmas as that annoying time where you have to deal with the mother-in-law, the bratty niece, or god forbid a sick grandfather. i mean- christmas is about the perfect dinner and the perfect presents, OH! and don't forget the perfect tree.
you know.. forget it... im not gonna even complain b/c i might "offend" some pathetic person who actually is the palstic shit i will never be. i am glad to not just see and love my family at christmas time- but all year round. i am so very thankful for every 1 of my 30 cousins and 18 aunts and uncles and all of the people that are practically family and my incredibly wonderful friends my parents, my brother and yes- my grandparents. i thought that after my papa's triple by-pass i would understand how precious life was and i would never take advantage of my grandparents and the precious time i have with them. yet, while i made sure i was close to my nana and my papa, my grandma and papa joe got lost in the shuffle. so now... another heart attack... massive... one whole artery clogged and an apology from kaiser for not catching it sooner never to come and a "no" on surery b/c papa joe is too old and its "futile"... futile? FUTILE? my papa joe is gonna die b/c you can't fucking hack it! ya and i mean that so don't think im being irrational. god... and now im worried. im afraid to go anywhere cuz i know something is gonna happen... and i want this christmas to be special... b/c ill just say it-- i get to spend this christmas with the man i love. i love eddie so incredinly much and we're going to disneyland and im just worried. he just went through this and now i have to and iuno... like-- i know this is my papa joe's time. he has the wisdom and knowledge i wish i could attatin the patience kindness and heart of a good man that i hope to marry one day. when my dad told me, i didn't cry like my mom or ask questions like evan or avoid the subject like my dad... i just accepted it and understood-- its time and there is nothing i can do to stop it except pray and hope that the rest of his time here is the best.
i don't know... i think we just need to love our family all year round not for a month b/c the season tells us so. and we should not take for granted the incredible knowledge and experiences the elders in our lives have.
there's more to christmas than the perfect dinner, present, and tree.... and if you don't know what that is here's a hay penny go find someone that speaks idiot
you know, as i begin to type this and listen to 96.5 (KOIT- seasonal music all season long), i almost want to write some analytical paper on the previously stated verse and go off on how we find ourselves more lonely at christmas time than we do at any other time of the year-- including national get laid day (also known as valentines day) and then go off on how so many people get engaged at christmas time b/c it makes the moment memorable and that family is SOOOOO essential during the holidys... except the entire season kids are stuck in school, moms and dads spend all their free time buying way too many presents for everyone they know plus a gift baxket for their mother and half way through christmas day most of the toys are broken, the chinese food from 2 nights ago ends up being breakfast, clothes tags are all over the place, a dead tree stands just asking for a match to light, and paper is everywhere. wow... for some reason, you would almost think christmas is about buying the most expensive present and hoping to god its not returned.... but i won't... i won't complain how christmas time is all about families... that get into arguments when the mashed potatoes do not taste the exact same way great great great great grandma made em when the family had to pioneer over from the east coast to the west coast and spent thanksgiving in the snow and she made the entire thanksgiving and christmas dinners out of food she gathered, caught, and killed herself. like i said... im not gonna do that... b/c its not worth my time.
i will however talk about how lucky I AM and how grateful I AM and how my christmas is all about family... actually i lied... im gonna go off onthe fact that christmas is family time and for the other 11 months they are the strangers with related blood that gave shitty christmas presents last year.
i cannot believe that people only think of christmas as that annoying time where you have to deal with the mother-in-law, the bratty niece, or god forbid a sick grandfather. i mean- christmas is about the perfect dinner and the perfect presents, OH! and don't forget the perfect tree.
you know.. forget it... im not gonna even complain b/c i might "offend" some pathetic person who actually is the palstic shit i will never be. i am glad to not just see and love my family at christmas time- but all year round. i am so very thankful for every 1 of my 30 cousins and 18 aunts and uncles and all of the people that are practically family and my incredibly wonderful friends my parents, my brother and yes- my grandparents. i thought that after my papa's triple by-pass i would understand how precious life was and i would never take advantage of my grandparents and the precious time i have with them. yet, while i made sure i was close to my nana and my papa, my grandma and papa joe got lost in the shuffle. so now... another heart attack... massive... one whole artery clogged and an apology from kaiser for not catching it sooner never to come and a "no" on surery b/c papa joe is too old and its "futile"... futile? FUTILE? my papa joe is gonna die b/c you can't fucking hack it! ya and i mean that so don't think im being irrational. god... and now im worried. im afraid to go anywhere cuz i know something is gonna happen... and i want this christmas to be special... b/c ill just say it-- i get to spend this christmas with the man i love. i love eddie so incredinly much and we're going to disneyland and im just worried. he just went through this and now i have to and iuno... like-- i know this is my papa joe's time. he has the wisdom and knowledge i wish i could attatin the patience kindness and heart of a good man that i hope to marry one day. when my dad told me, i didn't cry like my mom or ask questions like evan or avoid the subject like my dad... i just accepted it and understood-- its time and there is nothing i can do to stop it except pray and hope that the rest of his time here is the best.
i don't know... i think we just need to love our family all year round not for a month b/c the season tells us so. and we should not take for granted the incredible knowledge and experiences the elders in our lives have.
there's more to christmas than the perfect dinner, present, and tree.... and if you don't know what that is here's a hay penny go find someone that speaks idiot