I'm starting to like you. Well, this is awkward.
I checked my grades today : )
(via UP CRS - University of the Philippines Computerized Registration System)
My GWA (General Weighted Average) is still 1.43.
(UP grading system: 1 being the highest and 5 as the failing mark)
I still have a shot at running for Magna Cum Laude.
O__O
*licks an imaginary ice cream....uh, this gesture is quite disturbing*
I don't know if I can still maintain this GWA until I graduate. I hate it when I feel pressured. But then again, I feel a bit lost (and lazy) if I am totally free of any form of pressure.
Somewhere in the middle. I float somewhere in the middle of imperturbable clouds and fastidious beams.
I want to get good grades because I want to give something back to my parents. I know these are just numbers, but it's still something I can do for them. I'm doing it for myself too (I also worry/think about the future). But grades are just grades, will they really matter? Am I in the right college/course anyway? HERE THEY COME. IT'S THE SAME SET OF QUESTIONS ALL OVER AGAIN. I ONLY HAVE ONE YEAR LEFT IN MY HOME UNIVERSITY AND I'M STILL FEELING AMBIVALENT ABOUT CERTAIN MATTERS/DECISIONS. OH, LIFE.
I'm in a course I somewhat like. Nobody pressured me into taking this course (or maybe I pressured myself?) My real passion(?) lies somewhere else (in a different college/dept!). Oh, life. But I am happy in this course, I am. But I am looking for something else. Maybe I can find it if I look hard enough. I think big swerves aren't necessary as of now; I'm taking this path and I'm finishing it.
If I didn't go to Japan, I should have been doing my internship right now (this summer). Probably in some TV network or in the university's radio station. Or in some NGO or some crappy media company. And in June, if I were in UP instead of Rits, I should have been preparing for my senior year in college + my thesis.
Doesn't sound too enticing. No.
I wanted to study in Japan because:
* I've always wanted to go to Japan since I was a little kid. Seriously.
* I am immensely interested in the Japanese culture.
* And yes, I love Japanese movies & anime (and Haruki Murakami's books)
* AND...maybe, it's also my way of escaping my senior year in college. I want to get away from everything in my college. Just for one year, I want to sort things out. My path, plans, life directions. Myself. I WANT TO LEARN SO MANY THINGS. I WANT TO MEET PEOPLE. I WANT TO MEET MYSELF. (oh, yes) *eats a piece of Fujiya Milky candy*
I want to make documentaries, yes. I'm interested in public affairs, yes. BUT can I "live" doing these things? I mean this in a realist way of problematizing things. Will I get a steady job? Can I support myself? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
And then there's my dream of studying again. I want to study Sociology. Or perhaps Psychology.
I want to write.
Ah, there's so much I want to learn/do.
A quick summary of last semester's courses:
* LGBT Psychology - Definitely one of my favorite classes during my entire stay in UP. I learned so much from this class. I can't even put it into words. It was an ineffable learning/enlightening experience.
* Broadcasting and Development - Favorite class. We made a documentary film for our finals.
* Ethnographic Videography - Made my 1st quasi-experimental film.
- These two classes are taught by my favorite professor (future thesis adviser???haha).
* Creative Writing 100 - I love love love love this class. (And I don't make use of the word "love" that often. I don't). I enjoyed reading my classmates' works. And I also enjoyed writing my short story "The Narrator" Thanks to this class, I actually finished writing something (for a change).
* Broadcast Journalism 120 - TV News Production: This is one of the most difficult classes I've had so far. I'm serious. I thought I would just die in some dirty corner of an old abandoned building. But I didn't. Cheers to that. One of my favorite professors (I only have 2 favorites).
* Japanese 11 - I took this class even if it is NOT required. I took it even if it will NOT be credited, but may affect my grades. I took it even if it ends at 7PM twice a week. I took it even if it was a very inconvenient time in my life at that time (haha). AND I ENJOYED IT. I just wish I could have alloted more hours to reviewing everything. I had a hard time doing so because I was so busy with my majors. But I will always love this class because I love Japan too much : )
It was a fun semester in UP.
I had a lot of "enlightenments" in oh so many aspects. *grins*
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nerdy talk ends here
Japan talk begins here:
I had fun today.
I got up at around 9 (okay, maybe around 9:15am). I had bread (with eggs & bacon) for breakfast (I got it from Matsumoto's bread sale haha). And I had the bathroom all to myself again. I'm always alone during my daily morning shower. Good; more singing opportunities. Hihi.
AND I RODE MY BIKE TO SCHOOL.
Bleeding cacti, I bike so slowly! It took me around 20 mins to get to school.
Before my bike accident, it took me 15 mins to get to school. And after the accident, for some reason, I became slower at biking.
My wound doesn't hurt that much anymore, BUT MY SHOULDER IS FEELING FUNNY. NO, NOT FUNNY. BUT STRANGE, YES, VERY STRANGE. My left arm really hurts. I hope it gets better.
So I still have trouble going uphill. I still walk going uphill. K.
But I made it to class on time! Cheers to that!
We have a new professor in my Japanese class. I will surely miss Murakami-sensei. I hope she's okay.
I really need to study harder. The lessons are piling up and I have to remember all of them. O_O
But I'm actually doing pretty well with managing my study time for my JWP classes. I think I've got my readings under control. Hehe.
BUT yes, some classes are extremely boring. I shall not namedrop. Good thing other classes are equally extremely interesting i.e. Gender and Peace class, Public Health and International Development class.
And of course, I really love my Japanese class : )
I had lunch with Kaen, Yue, and Naka. I prepared my 1st ever bento for lunch! I can really save some money if I do this everyday. Hmmm.
My classes ended at 2:30pm today. I stayed in the library until around 5pm; I studied my readings for my Gender and Peace class. Melting cherries in a monkey basket (a personal expression), I love this class so much.
Then I went to the bookstore to look around. I found 2 of Haruki Murakami's books in ENGLISH! HOLY BANANAS! I wanted to buy them but they were too expensive: 1,400 yen each. I'll just buy them next time. (Dance, Dance, Dance & A Wild Sheep Chase)
I met up with Adaora, Rai, Naka, Megumi, Edwin, and Michelle at Gai Ben at around 6pm. We rode our bikes to JUMBO. Shige also joined us. He's so kind and funny! Best buddy! haha.
WOW. JUMBO, I LOVE YOU. The Yakisoba and Okonomiyaki were GREAT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Then on our way home, I had another bike practice session with Adaora (bike teacher-slash-life coach hehe). Adaora is sooo kind!
She was helping me get over my fear of slopes.
Oh! And I played videogames and foosball with Ericka, Megumi, and Naka. HAHA.
The videogames at I-house are really old (and kind of boring? haha).
The foosball match was fun though : )
And watched some funny Japanese TV show with Ericka and Shige: It was about a woman who can whistle really well. HAHA.
I got inspired by Ericka's story hehe. She told me that she started seriously learning Japanese just last semester. She was taking basic Japanese classes; she used to be in the JWP track. And now, she's in the C level. Her hard work has paid off!
Aaaaah, I need to do the same. Aaaaaaah.
Ganbatte ~
GOLDEN WEEK PLANS:
Megumi, Naka, Yue, Kaen, and I will go to Osaka and Nara! Shige will go with us to Nara. We still have to find someone to accompany us to Osaka.
I hope everything goes well!
(We'll also go to a karaoke place on Monday! haha)
I am too excited about the deer in Nara. Haha.
Tomorrow, I'll go somewhere with Ericka, Megumi, and Naka. We'll go sightseeing and biking! ^^
I like these people. I really do.
Biking. O__O
Oh dear, Bikey, let us be careful. Please.
***
About the title:
This is such an awkward feeling. I am not used to this. Not at all.
I am not used to liking an individual in such a special way. Cracking fish tanks. You make me nervous. Nooooo.
(via UP CRS - University of the Philippines Computerized Registration System)
My GWA (General Weighted Average) is still 1.43.
(UP grading system: 1 being the highest and 5 as the failing mark)
I still have a shot at running for Magna Cum Laude.
O__O
*licks an imaginary ice cream....uh, this gesture is quite disturbing*
I don't know if I can still maintain this GWA until I graduate. I hate it when I feel pressured. But then again, I feel a bit lost (and lazy) if I am totally free of any form of pressure.
Somewhere in the middle. I float somewhere in the middle of imperturbable clouds and fastidious beams.
I want to get good grades because I want to give something back to my parents. I know these are just numbers, but it's still something I can do for them. I'm doing it for myself too (I also worry/think about the future). But grades are just grades, will they really matter? Am I in the right college/course anyway? HERE THEY COME. IT'S THE SAME SET OF QUESTIONS ALL OVER AGAIN. I ONLY HAVE ONE YEAR LEFT IN MY HOME UNIVERSITY AND I'M STILL FEELING AMBIVALENT ABOUT CERTAIN MATTERS/DECISIONS. OH, LIFE.
I'm in a course I somewhat like. Nobody pressured me into taking this course (or maybe I pressured myself?) My real passion(?) lies somewhere else (in a different college/dept!). Oh, life. But I am happy in this course, I am. But I am looking for something else. Maybe I can find it if I look hard enough. I think big swerves aren't necessary as of now; I'm taking this path and I'm finishing it.
If I didn't go to Japan, I should have been doing my internship right now (this summer). Probably in some TV network or in the university's radio station. Or in some NGO or some crappy media company. And in June, if I were in UP instead of Rits, I should have been preparing for my senior year in college + my thesis.
Doesn't sound too enticing. No.
I wanted to study in Japan because:
* I've always wanted to go to Japan since I was a little kid. Seriously.
* I am immensely interested in the Japanese culture.
* And yes, I love Japanese movies & anime (and Haruki Murakami's books)
* AND...maybe, it's also my way of escaping my senior year in college. I want to get away from everything in my college. Just for one year, I want to sort things out. My path, plans, life directions. Myself. I WANT TO LEARN SO MANY THINGS. I WANT TO MEET PEOPLE. I WANT TO MEET MYSELF. (oh, yes) *eats a piece of Fujiya Milky candy*
I want to make documentaries, yes. I'm interested in public affairs, yes. BUT can I "live" doing these things? I mean this in a realist way of problematizing things. Will I get a steady job? Can I support myself? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
And then there's my dream of studying again. I want to study Sociology. Or perhaps Psychology.
I want to write.
Ah, there's so much I want to learn/do.
A quick summary of last semester's courses:
* LGBT Psychology - Definitely one of my favorite classes during my entire stay in UP. I learned so much from this class. I can't even put it into words. It was an ineffable learning/enlightening experience.
* Broadcasting and Development - Favorite class. We made a documentary film for our finals.
* Ethnographic Videography - Made my 1st quasi-experimental film.
- These two classes are taught by my favorite professor (future thesis adviser???haha).
* Creative Writing 100 - I love love love love this class. (And I don't make use of the word "love" that often. I don't). I enjoyed reading my classmates' works. And I also enjoyed writing my short story "The Narrator" Thanks to this class, I actually finished writing something (for a change).
* Broadcast Journalism 120 - TV News Production: This is one of the most difficult classes I've had so far. I'm serious. I thought I would just die in some dirty corner of an old abandoned building. But I didn't. Cheers to that. One of my favorite professors (I only have 2 favorites).
* Japanese 11 - I took this class even if it is NOT required. I took it even if it will NOT be credited, but may affect my grades. I took it even if it ends at 7PM twice a week. I took it even if it was a very inconvenient time in my life at that time (haha). AND I ENJOYED IT. I just wish I could have alloted more hours to reviewing everything. I had a hard time doing so because I was so busy with my majors. But I will always love this class because I love Japan too much : )
It was a fun semester in UP.
I had a lot of "enlightenments" in oh so many aspects. *grins*
_______________________________________________
nerdy talk ends here
Japan talk begins here:
I had fun today.
I got up at around 9 (okay, maybe around 9:15am). I had bread (with eggs & bacon) for breakfast (I got it from Matsumoto's bread sale haha). And I had the bathroom all to myself again. I'm always alone during my daily morning shower. Good; more singing opportunities. Hihi.
AND I RODE MY BIKE TO SCHOOL.
Bleeding cacti, I bike so slowly! It took me around 20 mins to get to school.
Before my bike accident, it took me 15 mins to get to school. And after the accident, for some reason, I became slower at biking.
My wound doesn't hurt that much anymore, BUT MY SHOULDER IS FEELING FUNNY. NO, NOT FUNNY. BUT STRANGE, YES, VERY STRANGE. My left arm really hurts. I hope it gets better.
So I still have trouble going uphill. I still walk going uphill. K.
But I made it to class on time! Cheers to that!
We have a new professor in my Japanese class. I will surely miss Murakami-sensei. I hope she's okay.
I really need to study harder. The lessons are piling up and I have to remember all of them. O_O
But I'm actually doing pretty well with managing my study time for my JWP classes. I think I've got my readings under control. Hehe.
BUT yes, some classes are extremely boring. I shall not namedrop. Good thing other classes are equally extremely interesting i.e. Gender and Peace class, Public Health and International Development class.
And of course, I really love my Japanese class : )
I had lunch with Kaen, Yue, and Naka. I prepared my 1st ever bento for lunch! I can really save some money if I do this everyday. Hmmm.
My classes ended at 2:30pm today. I stayed in the library until around 5pm; I studied my readings for my Gender and Peace class. Melting cherries in a monkey basket (a personal expression), I love this class so much.
Then I went to the bookstore to look around. I found 2 of Haruki Murakami's books in ENGLISH! HOLY BANANAS! I wanted to buy them but they were too expensive: 1,400 yen each. I'll just buy them next time. (Dance, Dance, Dance & A Wild Sheep Chase)
I met up with Adaora, Rai, Naka, Megumi, Edwin, and Michelle at Gai Ben at around 6pm. We rode our bikes to JUMBO. Shige also joined us. He's so kind and funny! Best buddy! haha.
WOW. JUMBO, I LOVE YOU. The Yakisoba and Okonomiyaki were GREAT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Then on our way home, I had another bike practice session with Adaora (bike teacher-slash-life coach hehe). Adaora is sooo kind!
She was helping me get over my fear of slopes.
Oh! And I played videogames and foosball with Ericka, Megumi, and Naka. HAHA.
The videogames at I-house are really old (and kind of boring? haha).
The foosball match was fun though : )
And watched some funny Japanese TV show with Ericka and Shige: It was about a woman who can whistle really well. HAHA.
I got inspired by Ericka's story hehe. She told me that she started seriously learning Japanese just last semester. She was taking basic Japanese classes; she used to be in the JWP track. And now, she's in the C level. Her hard work has paid off!
Aaaaah, I need to do the same. Aaaaaaah.
Ganbatte ~
GOLDEN WEEK PLANS:
Megumi, Naka, Yue, Kaen, and I will go to Osaka and Nara! Shige will go with us to Nara. We still have to find someone to accompany us to Osaka.
I hope everything goes well!
(We'll also go to a karaoke place on Monday! haha)
I am too excited about the deer in Nara. Haha.
Tomorrow, I'll go somewhere with Ericka, Megumi, and Naka. We'll go sightseeing and biking! ^^
I like these people. I really do.
Biking. O__O
Oh dear, Bikey, let us be careful. Please.
***
About the title:
This is such an awkward feeling. I am not used to this. Not at all.
I am not used to liking an individual in such a special way. Cracking fish tanks. You make me nervous. Nooooo.