Oct 07, 2004 10:12
1.) Today is one week until my birthday.
2.) I'm tired but I've got to be at work in 48 minutes.
3.) I feel more and more alone each day.
4.) In a couple weeks I'm probably not going to have a cell phone until my bill is paid.
5.) Each day it's getting harder to rationalize waking up.
6.) Then, remembering my lovely little reoccuring dream...I wake up.
7.) I want to feel good, feel alive again.
8.) I'm just tired of walking around like the living dead just to protect myself from the things that trouble me.
9.) I did, however have a good dream to even out the bad dream last night. mmm..Atreyu concert.
10.) It's a damn shame I won't be able to go to the concert. *sigh* I'm used to letdowns.
11.) Things will get better. Even if it kills me.