reflecting
i think far too often i am unwilling these days to trust i want to quit when i dont understand what is going on, esp if its at the risk of getting hurt again because of my stupidity or lack of awareness. but i am learning to wait and be still. i am learning to live my life and take the good i recieve, and thru this i am being blessed with gentleness in his eyes, im finding worth in how he cares for me despite the fact that i am an unexpected disrupt in his life and goals.
i am learning to breath without holding my breath because of the anxiety building within from fear that i was used and abandoned once again. i am taking what is good, and seeing his genuine care for all around him, and accepting the present blessings i have recieved, even if eventually it does end whether abruptly or not. that i have learned a great deal from him, and i am esp learning to love without restraint and allow my heart to be so full of thankfullness in the moments i am given in life
i am learning to breath without holding my breath because of the anxiety building within from fear that i was used and abandoned once again. i am taking what is good, and seeing his genuine care for all around him, and accepting the present blessings i have recieved, even if eventually it does end whether abruptly or not. that i have learned a great deal from him, and i am esp learning to love without restraint and allow my heart to be so full of thankfullness in the moments i am given in life