grah!

[prestidigitate]

i have created a place of discomfort, a place of segregation and of pure loneliness. i know in the end it will be better for both of us. its just now i am so alone and yes missing those good times with my old best friend. how can i not. when you spend 4 years of your life, most of your time with that one person and then suddenly they are gone just like that-whether its by my choice or not, i still miss him, i still feel sad, esp when i have nobody to be around to help me see that its better this way. i know it is, its just hard having someone then having no one.

i am in need of a cozy lingering hug and a new house in portland