Unsure
I've been so unsure about a lot of things lately. It seems like Jake and I are growing apart. Things keep happening, little things that make me so angry. I guess if they make me that upset there aren't really little things then, huh? All of a sudden he wants to go out drinking more and more. Stay out all night, go to parties. I'm not like that, never really have been to be honest. It just feels weird that NOW he wants to. Now that we have been together for over 3 years, now he is expressing his want of partying. I maybe be nothing but boredom but it makes me feel like he is doing this because he is tired of me. That he is drinking because he is unhappy. Yes, he does usually invite me to go with him, but I believe that if I ever agreed to go with him he would be disappointed. I believe he just asks me because he knows I will say no. Just like most of my friends do. They call me to invite me to a party or to go out and drink and such but they know me, they know I'll say no. But they do it anyway. I just don't understand it. But, I guess I don't have to.
Maybe this is the beginning of the end?
Maybe this is the beginning of the end?