It's time for some self-reflection.
In a world that shuns us, the romantics still live on as much as we can. It seems like our idea, my idea of love is dying out. Maybe it's just the people I see, what they consider love, I can only see as lust. Raw powerful sexual motivation is not the basis of a relationship, at best it's a fling. I am not saying that sex is bad, or wrong, or a sin or any of that shit. I am just approaching it from a different angle, our culture approaches sex like it's a game, the more you score the better you are as a person. Me on the other hand, I don't like to take that idea, I think it's stupid and a result of our culture's "Do as I say not as I do" attitude (Don't have sex, but look at how the cool people do it). My idea of sex is more of the spiritual, emotional bond that it forms. Maybe I am from a different age, maybe my kind is dying out for a reason, but as long as I and the others like me draw breath we will not give into the beliefs of those around us. For this reason I am making a promise that I intend to keep long after most of you have forgotten my name and face, I Max Storey promise that I can no longer be friends or associate with those that have cheated (on me, or on anyone else) I will deny my own emotions toward people (feelings as strong as love if it comes to it) if it means I am able to keep my promise. With this I also promise that I will never cheat, as long as it is in my power to do so. I cannot with a clean moral conscience acknowledge cheating as acceptable. I admit there are some situations where it may be unavoidable but for the most part it is a horrible unforgivable thing. I am not going to pull any punches this is what I believe, this is what I feel. I have in my life been tempted to cheat, but I did not. And if I can anyone can if they try hard enough, and if they can't then they don't deserve me. I may be emo, but is that so wrong? I am healthier for it sure I bitch a lot (I know that) but is it better to keep it inside? No I don't believe it is. When I am happy I act happy, when I am sad I act sad, I live behind no false image, what you see is what you get. I don't want to be some generic guy, all macho no emotion. I am not strong, I admit I have cried myself to sleep after a breakup, I have felt the razor edge of insanity more than once. I have felt so low that I felt that there was no hope for me, and have been shoved lower by those who I trusted most, but I still stand here today. What I say may not be happy, but then again the truth rarely is, but that is not saying I am an unhappy person. For the most part I am quite content with who I am, how I look, who I have by my side. When I reflect I am astounded at how much the people have stood by me, even when I put them through things that I wouldn't have even dealt with. But know this, when it comes down to it, I will die for anyone of you, I am there for the long run, no matter what you need (if you really need it) I will swallow my pride (even my enormous ego) to help you. I will be there as long as I can be with open arms, no anger, no hate, no malice, no "I told you so" attitude, and if anyone hurts any of my friends I will make everyday that they draw breath...well let's just hope they don't do it. I am Max. The hopeless romantic, the idealist, the bard, the lonely soul, the perfect love, the most hated enemy, friend to everyone and no-one at the same time, the perfect imperfect one and only Max.