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I'm going through a weird period of my life right now. I'll be 24 in two weeks so perhaps I'm entering the quarter life crisis, who knows.
To put it metaphorically, it's like I've been going down a long path for such a long time that I've kind of lost hindsight of why I've been travelling down it in the first place. I've been distracted by the birds and bees, the wonderful blue sky, the croaking of the frogs, or whatever else has popped into view and now I'm...lost. I'm just lost. And I can't find my way back to my path. Nor do I know if I actually want to go back to it.
It's complicated...no...I'm complicated. I'm complicated because I don't know what I want. I'm complicated because I've been cursed (or blessed, take your pick -- haha) with this female hormonal wiring that I have this need to over-analyze and question everything. Nothing is ever black or white. It's always grey...or brown...or blue...maybe a blue-ish yellow or perhaps a cobalt blue? Sapphire blue, possibly? Seriously? If I'm being honest with myself, I can't even tell the difference between colours so then why has it suddenly become a big deal?
Meh. Fucking eh.
To put it metaphorically, it's like I've been going down a long path for such a long time that I've kind of lost hindsight of why I've been travelling down it in the first place. I've been distracted by the birds and bees, the wonderful blue sky, the croaking of the frogs, or whatever else has popped into view and now I'm...lost. I'm just lost. And I can't find my way back to my path. Nor do I know if I actually want to go back to it.
It's complicated...no...I'm complicated. I'm complicated because I don't know what I want. I'm complicated because I've been cursed (or blessed, take your pick -- haha) with this female hormonal wiring that I have this need to over-analyze and question everything. Nothing is ever black or white. It's always grey...or brown...or blue...maybe a blue-ish yellow or perhaps a cobalt blue? Sapphire blue, possibly? Seriously? If I'm being honest with myself, I can't even tell the difference between colours so then why has it suddenly become a big deal?
Meh. Fucking eh.