Coming closer to the end....
As the year comes closer to the end, it gets so much easier. Basically, I just had a 42 page journal entry written, and it got deleted on me. All I've been doing for the past half hour is ranting and raving about people that make my life pointless. People that are selfish, ungrateful, and obnoxious. The kids that are 17 or 18 years old in high school with their own BMWs or Mercedes because their parents can buy them. Not all of us are blessed like you, not all of us have that luxury and can be as snotty, but we don't complain. Look at me, I'm 18, I don't have a job, car, or license. I'm not complaining, because I'm not out on the road with you idiots who probably drink and smoke behind the wheel. It's funny how annoying and materialistic people are, and the fact that people are obnoxious and stuck up, with no reasons to be. I'm sick of everyone crying over spilled milk, and being upset at the fact that they can't have everything they want, when infact, there are people in third world countries that can't even eat, and there are people with cancer that can't even get out of bed in the morning, while you're thinking you're suffering because you don't have the latest cell phone. Don't get me wrong, at one point in my life, if I didn't have something that everyone else had, I was spoiled and upset over it. Now, I realize that I should just be thanking God everyday for what I have. I'm used to having people complain, and I'm used to complaining, but I just realized that it's better to be happy with everything you have.
I hate the fact that guys can't understand what they do isn't always right. Guys that think they're always right is a turnoff. I hate when guys say that their girlfriends are "controlling" or "annoying," the next time you have the urge to use those two words about your girlfriend, try to think of all the things that she does for you, or that she at least tries to do. Everyone loves to tell me that what me and my boyfriend have is "perfect" and "awesome," but if anyone ever knew what was really going on, they wouldn't say the same thing. We fight, and when we fight we yell. We makeup, and when we makeup, we're perfect. We get sentimental, we get sensitive, and we get aggrivated. Perfection, I think not, I actually think it's ridiculous sometimes. We're perfect for each other, but at the same time, we're idiots. Nothing we do ever makes sense, and most of the time we're like an old, married couple and we stay in and watch tv cuddled up. If we ever did get to the point where we broke up, I probably wouldn't want to stay friends with him, due to the fact that I love him so much. We've invested too much time, blood, sweat, tears, and even money into our relationship not to be together. I've never met someone like him, but at the same time, I really wish I met him a long time ago, we've been together forever it seems like. I'm so in love with him, but at the same time, we get to the point where we're at odds with each other. So many things are circulating in my mind, and I just wonder about everything all the time. He can tell me that he hates me, he can tell me that I'm ugly, he can tell me he doesn't want to be with me, but I do what I want, no one tells me what to do. I'm not going to let anyone tell me how to act, or dress, or speak.... I am ME. Fuck it, I'm sick of ranting....
I hate the fact that guys can't understand what they do isn't always right. Guys that think they're always right is a turnoff. I hate when guys say that their girlfriends are "controlling" or "annoying," the next time you have the urge to use those two words about your girlfriend, try to think of all the things that she does for you, or that she at least tries to do. Everyone loves to tell me that what me and my boyfriend have is "perfect" and "awesome," but if anyone ever knew what was really going on, they wouldn't say the same thing. We fight, and when we fight we yell. We makeup, and when we makeup, we're perfect. We get sentimental, we get sensitive, and we get aggrivated. Perfection, I think not, I actually think it's ridiculous sometimes. We're perfect for each other, but at the same time, we're idiots. Nothing we do ever makes sense, and most of the time we're like an old, married couple and we stay in and watch tv cuddled up. If we ever did get to the point where we broke up, I probably wouldn't want to stay friends with him, due to the fact that I love him so much. We've invested too much time, blood, sweat, tears, and even money into our relationship not to be together. I've never met someone like him, but at the same time, I really wish I met him a long time ago, we've been together forever it seems like. I'm so in love with him, but at the same time, we get to the point where we're at odds with each other. So many things are circulating in my mind, and I just wonder about everything all the time. He can tell me that he hates me, he can tell me that I'm ugly, he can tell me he doesn't want to be with me, but I do what I want, no one tells me what to do. I'm not going to let anyone tell me how to act, or dress, or speak.... I am ME. Fuck it, I'm sick of ranting....