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[preppyfag]

bleh. so i feel like my relationship with eirc is goin no where. i still like him and i am pretty sure he still like me. i dunno. it's not really like any relationship i have had in the past. i know i can't really compare any of them, but sometimes i wonder where this is all gonna lead too. i feel like i spend so much time and energy making him happy and trying to be the best bf but i don't really feel like i am gettin anything in return. i know it kinda sounds selfish but i just get frustrated. i can totally see us together for a long time. i just worry that i am gonna end up bein a totally whipped biotch that does whatever he says. that's not who i am. i just don't wanna say anything for fear he will get mad and not like me anymore.

wow reading over this i worry way way to much about everything. i think i need to take a fuckin zanex.