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new mantra: "only one more year" directions. recite. repeat. continue repeating until "situation" has resumed to "normal".
and for the first time in my life, i'm fucking tired of theatre people. and i'm fucking tired of people reminding me how unimportant i am. thanks. like i'd forgotten in the five minutes since your last comment. and i'm tired of not driving. my one last lingering form of dependence.
and seriously, if it was my own house? i would take care of it, actually do the dishes, enjoy doing laundry, tidying, organizing, decorating. but it's not. and it is they who are fucked up.
why didn't i ever get a vacation? and why do i push people away by being busy?
fuckity fuck fuck fuck.
and for the first time in my life, i'm fucking tired of theatre people. and i'm fucking tired of people reminding me how unimportant i am. thanks. like i'd forgotten in the five minutes since your last comment. and i'm tired of not driving. my one last lingering form of dependence.
and seriously, if it was my own house? i would take care of it, actually do the dishes, enjoy doing laundry, tidying, organizing, decorating. but it's not. and it is they who are fucked up.
why didn't i ever get a vacation? and why do i push people away by being busy?
fuckity fuck fuck fuck.