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well just got back from the fireworks...chilled with a bunch of people. me and mike rode there and walked around to find some people...found amanda first then saw lauren...i was shocked lol. continued walking around with mike. met up with erick, dana, zach, sean and some other chicks. we all just walked around...found amanda finally. basically chilled with her the whole night... the fireworks were alright i guess.
i dont know today was kinda a drag...im happy when im with my friends and everything. my friends are pretty cool. their always there for me and always have my back. i dont know when im with everyone...like mike, and amanda and zach and all the boys...it helps take away the pain but its like i go out everyday and i guess i have a good time and all but then i just come home and sit here in front of my computer. i dont know anymore. i guess times change...people change. looks like im one of them... everyone use to get pissed at me because they expected the summer to be total shit because id be off with andrea everyday. i told them it wouldnt be shit...id have my car...we can go places and everything. but right now i dont know...so many people are changing around me. ericks all into "the gurls" at the moment. coreys off with lauren and working and stuff but i cant really say hes changed because hes busy. this whole andrea and steph thing kills me the most. it all just happend so fast. i always feel sick when i think about it...like i wanna throw up. everyday i just wish they would forgive me. but i guess i shouldnt be forgiven for the things i did. i dont know, i should just stop talking about all this but its like i cant. it helps to just write it.
but w/e...summer 05
i dont know today was kinda a drag...im happy when im with my friends and everything. my friends are pretty cool. their always there for me and always have my back. i dont know when im with everyone...like mike, and amanda and zach and all the boys...it helps take away the pain but its like i go out everyday and i guess i have a good time and all but then i just come home and sit here in front of my computer. i dont know anymore. i guess times change...people change. looks like im one of them... everyone use to get pissed at me because they expected the summer to be total shit because id be off with andrea everyday. i told them it wouldnt be shit...id have my car...we can go places and everything. but right now i dont know...so many people are changing around me. ericks all into "the gurls" at the moment. coreys off with lauren and working and stuff but i cant really say hes changed because hes busy. this whole andrea and steph thing kills me the most. it all just happend so fast. i always feel sick when i think about it...like i wanna throw up. everyday i just wish they would forgive me. but i guess i shouldnt be forgiven for the things i did. i dont know, i should just stop talking about all this but its like i cant. it helps to just write it.
but w/e...summer 05