I feel horrible...
So I am in another analytical mood today... (and by that I do NOT mean analytical CHEMISTRY mood)...
It's really weird when you hear and feel yourself changing yet you know there's nothing you can do to stop it. Like today, I realized that I am becoming a lot meaner towards people in my life. Like if people are annoying me, I have no problem telling them that they're annoying me, or maybe I don't tell them flat out. Maybe instead I'm just really mean to them and I knock down everything they say.
Sometimes I feel like enough is enough. Like I feel like I've listened and tried to help for long enough, and now I'm just going to knock them down until they choose that they are at least going to try to help themselves.
I think I'm mean...
Then again I am absolutely physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I was awake for a grand total of 6 hours this weekend. My mom said she tried to wake me up and I didn't even move. That's weird for me because I'm normally a light sleeper.
I'm not tired of school, but I'm tired of everything going wrong. I'm tired of failing and I'm tired of losing. I'm tired of being in pain 24/7.
Oh and P.S., I thought my ankle was better today so I went to try to walk without the brace on it and now it is swollen to the size of a tennis ball.......your welcome....
It's really weird when you hear and feel yourself changing yet you know there's nothing you can do to stop it. Like today, I realized that I am becoming a lot meaner towards people in my life. Like if people are annoying me, I have no problem telling them that they're annoying me, or maybe I don't tell them flat out. Maybe instead I'm just really mean to them and I knock down everything they say.
Sometimes I feel like enough is enough. Like I feel like I've listened and tried to help for long enough, and now I'm just going to knock them down until they choose that they are at least going to try to help themselves.
I think I'm mean...
Then again I am absolutely physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I was awake for a grand total of 6 hours this weekend. My mom said she tried to wake me up and I didn't even move. That's weird for me because I'm normally a light sleeper.
I'm not tired of school, but I'm tired of everything going wrong. I'm tired of failing and I'm tired of losing. I'm tired of being in pain 24/7.
Oh and P.S., I thought my ankle was better today so I went to try to walk without the brace on it and now it is swollen to the size of a tennis ball.......your welcome....