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"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
Five years ago today, I posted that quote on my Facebook wall. That's what Facebook tells me. Good old throwbacks.
I remember lying on the couch in the living room of the off campus house I shared with three others when I posted that. I was aching to get out into the world and travel and I was just starting to crack an awkward shell that I was trapped in for what felt like too long. I used to be lonely, sad, confused, and lost, and the pain of waking up everyday not knowing how to make myself better was getting to be too much. Life can be confusing and depression can drag you down to rock bottom.
A few baby steps in the right direction led to bigger strides and here I am. I've explored quite a bit, dreamed a lot, and discovered people, places, and activities that changed my life into something quite beautiful. And thank goodness for that because, as all of the clickbait articles will tell you, these days are precious. We get these days and, if we're lucky, we get people to share them with.
I'm still on the quest to be a better person. To be more compassionate, kind, cool, and generous is an endless practice. Trying new things, seeking out new skills and knowledge, and stepping into the unsafe space is also something I try to keep at.
A physical theatre teacher I had in college told us to always "choose death" in life and in performance. It's a philosophy from the Japanese book, "Hagakure", or "The Way of the Samurai". It's the practice of choosing the ballsier route every time. In battle, mustering up everything you have and going for the kill, even though it might be you that winds up dead. In performance, making the bold choice that scares you because everyones watching. In life, going in for the kiss, applying for the job that you're not sure you're qualified for, quitting the dead end job with the nice salary. I've tried to live that way ever since and it's revealed a world that is electric and vibrant and fun and so full of love. It blows my mind everyday.
The point of this cheesy post is that I'm doing well. And I hope you are, too. I hope you're as well as you can be and if you're not, I sincerely hope that you can find your way through. It can be hard to see, but there is definitely a way through and the other side is so worth the trip.
With love,
Bavani
Five years ago today, I posted that quote on my Facebook wall. That's what Facebook tells me. Good old throwbacks.
I remember lying on the couch in the living room of the off campus house I shared with three others when I posted that. I was aching to get out into the world and travel and I was just starting to crack an awkward shell that I was trapped in for what felt like too long. I used to be lonely, sad, confused, and lost, and the pain of waking up everyday not knowing how to make myself better was getting to be too much. Life can be confusing and depression can drag you down to rock bottom.
A few baby steps in the right direction led to bigger strides and here I am. I've explored quite a bit, dreamed a lot, and discovered people, places, and activities that changed my life into something quite beautiful. And thank goodness for that because, as all of the clickbait articles will tell you, these days are precious. We get these days and, if we're lucky, we get people to share them with.
I'm still on the quest to be a better person. To be more compassionate, kind, cool, and generous is an endless practice. Trying new things, seeking out new skills and knowledge, and stepping into the unsafe space is also something I try to keep at.
A physical theatre teacher I had in college told us to always "choose death" in life and in performance. It's a philosophy from the Japanese book, "Hagakure", or "The Way of the Samurai". It's the practice of choosing the ballsier route every time. In battle, mustering up everything you have and going for the kill, even though it might be you that winds up dead. In performance, making the bold choice that scares you because everyones watching. In life, going in for the kiss, applying for the job that you're not sure you're qualified for, quitting the dead end job with the nice salary. I've tried to live that way ever since and it's revealed a world that is electric and vibrant and fun and so full of love. It blows my mind everyday.
The point of this cheesy post is that I'm doing well. And I hope you are, too. I hope you're as well as you can be and if you're not, I sincerely hope that you can find your way through. It can be hard to see, but there is definitely a way through and the other side is so worth the trip.
With love,
Bavani