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I don't know how I am going to get through this pregnancy insomnia! I feel that it is being largely caused by stress, but regardless of how hard I try to calm my thoughts at night, I can't seem to. I'm in my third trimester now and am starting to have some negative thoughts about my ability to be a Mom as well as the sustainability of my relationship. (both of which I realize are ridiculous thoughts, but I can't shake the doubts)
Last night, I finally fell asleep into a profound sleep at 9:30pm only to he woken up by my father-in-law phoning for my partner about some video game... ugh... ALL of my inlaws including my partner have been really getting under my skin lately about small things. I have noticed that I have been unconciously avoiding my inlaws lately which means my partner ends up seeing them less. I feel so selfish but I am so close to losing patience with my father-in-law on a regular basis for really minor things that wouldn't normally bother me: ie) him calling a little late, him always telling me that I look tired, etc. Anyway, after last night's phone call, I believe I slept a grand total of 5-6 more hours of light sleep that was interrupted by 3 pee breaks.
Furthermore, at work today around 11am I ate the first half of my lunch. I usually eat two small meals at work rather than one to get me through the day A young male colleague of mine said to me, "You know, you've gained a lot of weight since I met you." I replied, "Well, that's natural. I'm pregnant." to which he retorted, "Yeah, but not just in your belly, but everywhere." We were sitting with another colleague, an older woman without children, who then said, "Yeah, you're starting to grow out of your clothes." (I was wearing my new maternity clothes that my Mom bought me for Christmas!!) they both laughed and the male colleague said, "You're always eating, too." (I only see him during my breaks!!)
I was 110-115lbs pre-pregnancy and weighed myself in tonight at 135 at the pool. At 28 weeks, I don't consider 20-25 lbs a significant weight gain, especially since I was quite slender pre-pregnancy... my partner basically told me to ignore comments from inexperienced people and to continue feeding his child! I don't know why I let these types of comments get to me. I'm SO tired and SO impatient with everything...
...any thoughts?
Last night, I finally fell asleep into a profound sleep at 9:30pm only to he woken up by my father-in-law phoning for my partner about some video game... ugh... ALL of my inlaws including my partner have been really getting under my skin lately about small things. I have noticed that I have been unconciously avoiding my inlaws lately which means my partner ends up seeing them less. I feel so selfish but I am so close to losing patience with my father-in-law on a regular basis for really minor things that wouldn't normally bother me: ie) him calling a little late, him always telling me that I look tired, etc. Anyway, after last night's phone call, I believe I slept a grand total of 5-6 more hours of light sleep that was interrupted by 3 pee breaks.
Furthermore, at work today around 11am I ate the first half of my lunch. I usually eat two small meals at work rather than one to get me through the day A young male colleague of mine said to me, "You know, you've gained a lot of weight since I met you." I replied, "Well, that's natural. I'm pregnant." to which he retorted, "Yeah, but not just in your belly, but everywhere." We were sitting with another colleague, an older woman without children, who then said, "Yeah, you're starting to grow out of your clothes." (I was wearing my new maternity clothes that my Mom bought me for Christmas!!) they both laughed and the male colleague said, "You're always eating, too." (I only see him during my breaks!!)
I was 110-115lbs pre-pregnancy and weighed myself in tonight at 135 at the pool. At 28 weeks, I don't consider 20-25 lbs a significant weight gain, especially since I was quite slender pre-pregnancy... my partner basically told me to ignore comments from inexperienced people and to continue feeding his child! I don't know why I let these types of comments get to me. I'm SO tired and SO impatient with everything...
...any thoughts?