Miscarriage?
I know the post below me is about a miscarriage, but I have an odd question.. since these are so sensitive, I didn't want to hijack her thread..
First of all, my boyfriend and I have been together for two years. I am a full time college student and he works on a barge on the MS River for 28 days at a time. Babies are the farthest things from our minds right now. Anywho, since he is gone for so long at a time when he is in town we have "fun" fairly often and we are always responsible. Not this time. I had forgotten to take so many of my birth control pills in December's pack that I threw them out early in the month and was going to wait until my next "natural" period before I started them again. We had unprotected sex four times around December 15, 2009. He left January 1st, 2010 for another trip.
After he left, I just felt weird. I ride horses and I love my horse--but the smell of him made me incredibly sick. I love catfish, and suddenly catfish was incredibly irritating and disgusting. I could smell odd things from a mile away. I began to feel quesy all the time, as if I'm about to vomit, but I never did. My boobs were very sore. I cried over everything. I started my birth control again without waiting for my cycle to "fix" itself. (Essentially I was going to go 2 months without a period because I'm an idiot) I just felt pregnant.. It was an odd, empowering, deep feeling. I just KNEW.
I took a pregnancy test a week after he left (the farthest I could have been would be 2-3 weeks) and I knew it would say negative and it did, but I tried anyways. I stopped thinking about it for a while and continued with my birth control and figured I probably wasn't pregnant. Well yesterday I woke up to incredibly painful contractions that kept me awake and were regular in waves about 5-10 minutes apart. I figured this was AF--but she came a week early and on birth control that just doesn't happen. Tonight I have started to get cramps so powerful they make me feel sick and I passed two very large clots--both larger than a quarter. I have never, in my life, passed clots during my period.
I guess what I am asking is--do you think it was possible I was pregnant and had a miscarriage very early on? Or do you think this period is breakthrough and incredibly heavy because I attempted to go two months without a period? (Abusing my birth control) My boyfriend doesn't think I was ever pregnant but I can't forget the way I just "felt" I was pregnant the week or so after he left. That feeling abruptly ended and so did my symptoms about a week ago.
What do early miscarriage clots look like? I have not had a TON of blood just regularly timed, PAINFUL cramps that remind me of contractions and these two clots. There is blood, but not enough to fill a super tampon.
I'm sorry it was so long. I have so many questions and am somewhat hurt and confused over this. My boyfriend seems very "whatever" about the whole thing.
P.S. -- if someone can help me figure out this LJ "cut" button I will GLADLY cut this but I can't seem to figure it out!! I'm so sorry EDIT-- I got it :)