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[deanarae]

I'm 13 weeks today, and I still don't feel any sort of connection to my pregnancy. I don't feel like I'm really pregnant - I just feel like it's some words that I say, or a maybe a new hobby that I've taken up (reading about pregnancy). I am dealing with untreated (at the moment, because I stopped my medications when I found out I was pregnant)

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[karmapearl]

I don't think you're abnormal. It took me a while to really "get" the whole pregnant thing. This is my 2nd pregnancy; my first ended in miscarriage and this baby was VERY MUCH tried for (it took us nearly a year to conceive) and I was just beyond thrilled when I discovered I was pregnant. I think my detachment came from trying to protect myself from another emotional heartbreak if things hadn't worked out with this baby.

I didn't start really "feeling it" until I started feeling the baby move which was around 19 weeks (wiggling and squirming). And then, it didn't really "HIT ME" until we went to Babies R Us and started zapping registry items (around 24 weeks). It was like a big reality truck hit me and I thought, "Holy crap, THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING."

I still have random moments where my heart fills up and it feels like the air's been sucked away and I'm overwhelmed with the fact that I actually have a human being inside of me, and that she will be OUTSIDE, and in my life in a little over 2 months. Sometimes it's a song that sets me off, or a certain way she kicks; a picture, a poem, or just a quiet moment where the reality sinks in.

When you're in the waiting period of not showing yet, and not feeling movement it's really, REALLY easy to "forget" you're pregnant.