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I seem to be dealing with a lot of emotional crap this pregnancy that I didn’t experience with my first. I am wondering if it’s just normal from stresses, hormones and having a toddler on top of being pregnant or whether I should be concerned. I am feeling guilty about getting pregnant so quickly after my daughter (there will be 19 months between) as #1) it’s screwing with our breastfeeding relationship and #)2 turning me into a horrible mother.
I have found I anger incredibly quickly at my 16 month old which is something that scares me as I have never felt anger towards her previously. I realise I’m getting angry/upset/emotional for totally unreasonable things and even thought about spanking my daughter which is something I have never done and will never do. When she is crying I have to hand her to my husband as the crying just grates me. I have never felt this way before, she has cried for hours in my arms and I have never found this too upsetting. Of course, it’s upsetting to hear your child cry but previously I was upset for her, not myself. Now when she’s been crying I just get... angry... which I get really angry with myself for.
I have also drastically reduced the fun things we used to do together. I am too tired to take her to the beach (it’s an hour drive), I am too tired to do the park twice a day (its down the road, and we used to go LOTS), I am too tired to carry her while I cook/clean/create. The poor peach is probably wondering who this horrible mother is. I feel so bad for her.
There have been a lot of other stresses in our lives lately, my husband went back to work full-time and we have taken on two international students who need cooking/cleaning for . I have gone from having my hubby around most of the time being my man slave to being home alone weekdays until 6:30pm with a lot more cooking/cleaning on my hands. This of course is normal work load for a lot of SAHM’s but it’s new to me.
My husband who lacks tact and is generally very supportive keeps saying really unsupportive things when he comes home to find chaos and stressed out wife & toddler. Phrases such as “how are we going to cope with two?” and “how come other mothers can do it?”. Of course these statements wouldn’t be so upsetting if I was secretly thinking them myself. I feel like crying all the time and so angry at myself for not coping. I do not want to feel angry at my daughter, it isn’t fair. Is this normal considering the circumstances ? Is this pre-natal depression? Am I just horried? We planned and want this new baby but now I am feeling sick about the thought of two! Someone tell me this gets better.
I have found I anger incredibly quickly at my 16 month old which is something that scares me as I have never felt anger towards her previously. I realise I’m getting angry/upset/emotional for totally unreasonable things and even thought about spanking my daughter which is something I have never done and will never do. When she is crying I have to hand her to my husband as the crying just grates me. I have never felt this way before, she has cried for hours in my arms and I have never found this too upsetting. Of course, it’s upsetting to hear your child cry but previously I was upset for her, not myself. Now when she’s been crying I just get... angry... which I get really angry with myself for.
I have also drastically reduced the fun things we used to do together. I am too tired to take her to the beach (it’s an hour drive), I am too tired to do the park twice a day (its down the road, and we used to go LOTS), I am too tired to carry her while I cook/clean/create. The poor peach is probably wondering who this horrible mother is. I feel so bad for her.
There have been a lot of other stresses in our lives lately, my husband went back to work full-time and we have taken on two international students who need cooking/cleaning for . I have gone from having my hubby around most of the time being my man slave to being home alone weekdays until 6:30pm with a lot more cooking/cleaning on my hands. This of course is normal work load for a lot of SAHM’s but it’s new to me.
My husband who lacks tact and is generally very supportive keeps saying really unsupportive things when he comes home to find chaos and stressed out wife & toddler. Phrases such as “how are we going to cope with two?” and “how come other mothers can do it?”. Of course these statements wouldn’t be so upsetting if I was secretly thinking them myself. I feel like crying all the time and so angry at myself for not coping. I do not want to feel angry at my daughter, it isn’t fair. Is this normal considering the circumstances ? Is this pre-natal depression? Am I just horried? We planned and want this new baby but now I am feeling sick about the thought of two! Someone tell me this gets better.