9/13/83 - remembering a friend.
well, a lot has happened in the past week. i have tons of work to do for classes, i had my first quiz of the semester (14/14 - woot woot), i have my first test today, and my first group meeting tomorrow. i've got to admit though, my mind isn't all in it.
this weekend was great/hard. i got to see nate and stay at the temp evans house. i tried power hour, but didn't do so great with the time limit - haha. we went to a tigers game - nates mom got drunk off 2 beers.
and so, saturday came. things were going awesome. i got to see nick at noon - we got some lunch at depot town, which was super cute, and walked around a firestation museum display out in a park. i got to meet his friend from work, we hit up the storage unit, and drove around for a while til we could get in at the place we stayed. then we watched football for like 4 hours. i don't like watching sports with guys that are huge fans because they get SOOOO into it that it's scary! haha, it was fun though. anyways, we went to toledo for a festival. on the way there, nick tells me he got a job offer he has to take... in california. wow. what a huge let down. right as things were starting to get serious. the hardest part was staying on the up for his sake while we were at this festival with his friends. i am so happy for him, but am so frustrated and scared that i will probably never see him again. i'm feeling so many mixed emotions right now and don't really know why i'm writing them down on here. i guess i just need people's help. how do you stay happy for someone when you are internally miserable and mad at the situation? don't get me wrong - it will help him get a foot in the door down there, get him situated and ready for the next step in his life. but at the same time, i selfishly want him to wait a little while. i think deep down, i knew something was going to happen like this and that's why i didn't let myself get too roped in. i guess that if i have one more day with him, it better be good, right? ........
life is truly a jerk. i just don't know what to make of it. when is it going to be my turn to be happy? when are things going to start working out?
this weekend was great/hard. i got to see nate and stay at the temp evans house. i tried power hour, but didn't do so great with the time limit - haha. we went to a tigers game - nates mom got drunk off 2 beers.
and so, saturday came. things were going awesome. i got to see nick at noon - we got some lunch at depot town, which was super cute, and walked around a firestation museum display out in a park. i got to meet his friend from work, we hit up the storage unit, and drove around for a while til we could get in at the place we stayed. then we watched football for like 4 hours. i don't like watching sports with guys that are huge fans because they get SOOOO into it that it's scary! haha, it was fun though. anyways, we went to toledo for a festival. on the way there, nick tells me he got a job offer he has to take... in california. wow. what a huge let down. right as things were starting to get serious. the hardest part was staying on the up for his sake while we were at this festival with his friends. i am so happy for him, but am so frustrated and scared that i will probably never see him again. i'm feeling so many mixed emotions right now and don't really know why i'm writing them down on here. i guess i just need people's help. how do you stay happy for someone when you are internally miserable and mad at the situation? don't get me wrong - it will help him get a foot in the door down there, get him situated and ready for the next step in his life. but at the same time, i selfishly want him to wait a little while. i think deep down, i knew something was going to happen like this and that's why i didn't let myself get too roped in. i guess that if i have one more day with him, it better be good, right? ........
life is truly a jerk. i just don't know what to make of it. when is it going to be my turn to be happy? when are things going to start working out?