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i really enjoy the fact that i've now decided that the best place to have my intro for my sip start is at the very beginning. and by that, i mean with volume 1, section 3 of the kojiki, where the very first island was created. 'cause, y'know. what better place to start than the beginning. or something.
anyway.
i really dislike how slowly the actual writing is going. it's that little voice in my head, the one that keeps insulting my crappy writing and telling me that i want to make it much better before i move on to say anything else. it's crap.
i know what i want to say, but i just can't say it to my own satisfaction. and despite the knowledge that i really should just keep going so i have more words on paper and just make it better later, my brain won't let me do that 'cause it's dumb.
certainly doesn't help that i'm still doing this stupid thing where i wake up no later than 9 am regardless of what time i went to bed. i hate it. i mean, it's kinda nice, if i have some actual reason to want to be awake in the mornings, but it won't even go away if i stay up late and am clearly still tired. i was telling my grandmother about it yesterday and she said that's what it's like for her, except that she doesn't go to bed late, and she automatically wakes up no later than 4 am.
blargh.
but!
it's almost christmas!
which, interestingly, mostly means that it's almost time to go back to michigan, where i won't be trying to see people, write sip, clean the house so it can get sold, and work for moneys. i'll just be seeing people and writing sip. and sleeping. oh god i hope i manage the sleeping and stop failing at that.
and now i cease rambling and go back to sippage. whee.
anyway.
i really dislike how slowly the actual writing is going. it's that little voice in my head, the one that keeps insulting my crappy writing and telling me that i want to make it much better before i move on to say anything else. it's crap.
i know what i want to say, but i just can't say it to my own satisfaction. and despite the knowledge that i really should just keep going so i have more words on paper and just make it better later, my brain won't let me do that 'cause it's dumb.
certainly doesn't help that i'm still doing this stupid thing where i wake up no later than 9 am regardless of what time i went to bed. i hate it. i mean, it's kinda nice, if i have some actual reason to want to be awake in the mornings, but it won't even go away if i stay up late and am clearly still tired. i was telling my grandmother about it yesterday and she said that's what it's like for her, except that she doesn't go to bed late, and she automatically wakes up no later than 4 am.
blargh.
but!
it's almost christmas!
which, interestingly, mostly means that it's almost time to go back to michigan, where i won't be trying to see people, write sip, clean the house so it can get sold, and work for moneys. i'll just be seeing people and writing sip. and sleeping. oh god i hope i manage the sleeping and stop failing at that.
and now i cease rambling and go back to sippage. whee.