You are my sweet warm old jacket
Wow, its been awhile since i've written on this lovely little out let of mine. I think its because i frequently use myspace these days. I really am sort of obsessed with it. But, the one thing I don't like about myspace is that is really kind of commercial, and you can't always be yourself because there too many people know you and are connected and people start to talk about what you are writing and it all just gets sort of political sometimes..which I guess is part of the reason why i continue to use it . Because I want to be just as caught up to the minute with all the gossip as the rest and really im just complaining about a cycle the i help perpetuate, so someone tell me to shut up, please!
Anyways , i will continue to use this to discuss and let out my feelings about things that i can't say on myspace. so all of you or none of you reading this, as the case more probably is , are my sweet warm old jacket, my balm to the abrasive other world.
Oh last nite was Improvathon. Isn't strange how things can start out one way and then end another? Like, you could be sitting in you kitchen, sharing a chocolate cookie with someone wonderful that you can't have, and hours later , you have your arms locked around some one that wants you and you want them and they make you happy. And you want to think you are special even in that relaxed lets not be exclusive sort of way. You want respect because you know it was good for them, like it was for you . And you both had a blast! So, it shouldn't be awkward, lord i hope it won't be awkward. I pray he comes to class on tuesday, because i just realized i won't be there on friday, and if I want us to continue I have to strike while the iron is hot after all? But, do I really want use to continue? More likely, i just want to know that he is there for when i need him,and when we need each other and we can be friends , sort of with benefits . As long as its like yesterday, where I feel taken care of and safe. Then, we will be fine. God,I hope I see him sometime this week !
I have to go study for threee hard tests tomorrow!
Its been so lovely talking again .
Anyways , i will continue to use this to discuss and let out my feelings about things that i can't say on myspace. so all of you or none of you reading this, as the case more probably is , are my sweet warm old jacket, my balm to the abrasive other world.
Oh last nite was Improvathon. Isn't strange how things can start out one way and then end another? Like, you could be sitting in you kitchen, sharing a chocolate cookie with someone wonderful that you can't have, and hours later , you have your arms locked around some one that wants you and you want them and they make you happy. And you want to think you are special even in that relaxed lets not be exclusive sort of way. You want respect because you know it was good for them, like it was for you . And you both had a blast! So, it shouldn't be awkward, lord i hope it won't be awkward. I pray he comes to class on tuesday, because i just realized i won't be there on friday, and if I want us to continue I have to strike while the iron is hot after all? But, do I really want use to continue? More likely, i just want to know that he is there for when i need him,and when we need each other and we can be friends , sort of with benefits . As long as its like yesterday, where I feel taken care of and safe. Then, we will be fine. God,I hope I see him sometime this week !
I have to go study for threee hard tests tomorrow!
Its been so lovely talking again .