Ok heres what going on . Try to keep up.
*Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot. Who calls you back when you hang up on him. Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who pursues you, who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on and insists on holding you around the waist. The one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says 'that's her'.
ok, this is what im waiting for. Everybody clear on that? good.
By the way, any guys that i know read this journal, whether you are a friend or just a visitor, go to my memories and read the entry under "ain't that the truth!" . this is what every girl wants! print it out, tattoo it to your right arm, remember it because it is a sure-fire way to make any woman fall in love with you .
Ladies, go and read this memory as well. This is what we are looking for. don't delude yourself and say that you just want to have fun. Believe me , i am a staunch supporter of the " lets just have a good time " club. but think about, all those guys we date just because we are looking for some fun, they aren't the ones that are in our dreams, right ? At least not the dreams where you feel real love, not just lust; the dreams where you are on a beach, not just in a sweaty night club .
Ok , so today , i got kissed , you guys. Not really kissed , but you know our lips touched and everything . The weird thing it that we used to kiss all the time. Not on the mouth you understand, but on the cheek, the forehead, the nose. And he used to hold me so tight, but then we both got involved in other people, and we cooled off. So today, i see him at lunch, and he comes up and runs his fingers through my hair and i feel it all the way down my spine. And after school, i see him and i go over pretending to be sad and he gives me this huge hug. And we are standing there, right in front of two of our mutual guy friends and he swoops in and smacks me on the lips. Then, he was like " we should do that more often now that we are both single again" . And i just blew it off, because im not going to discuss this with two of our friends standing right there. it would be all over school in a matter of hours. Plus, im not quite sure what he wants. Is he saying he wants a relationship, where we date and see where that takes us or does he just want a make-out partner that is more conveniently located than his last girl? because if its the latter , i dont think im interested. Then he says " we never did make out , you know" and i think he's totally kidding, but then his lips are touching mine again, and he's not just wanting a little. That boy had a clear goal, and the only reason i didn't respond was because i had no idea about my breath situation and i wasn't going to make out with him for the first time standing next to our two guy friends, with my dad about to drive up any second and have bad breath, nope not a chance.
K, next topic, are you guys still with me? Am i still pretty ? Cute ? Sexy? Hott? am i ? i just don't know. i keep asking people and they say of course i am, but they dont look me in the eye. Why is that ? Are you guys lying to me? Why do i always think i need to be stronger, smarter blonder, skinnier, tanner, more toned? Maybe its because i hurt my foot and i haven't been able to work out in a week. God, being a girl is just soo frustrating!
So, you know how you can't wait to turn 18 for a couple of reasons? Here are mine: finally, my penchant fr dating older guys won't be such a bad thing anymore. ill finally be able to vote for myself , instead of having to sway my parents into voting for me. And, i will be able to live with anyone i want. But, the thing is now i still feel like i don't live with anyone anyways because nobody talks to me. I feel like i live in a bubble of bubble gum.
theres soo much i have to say soo, im going to go and write many many songs bye
ok, this is what im waiting for. Everybody clear on that? good.
By the way, any guys that i know read this journal, whether you are a friend or just a visitor, go to my memories and read the entry under "ain't that the truth!" . this is what every girl wants! print it out, tattoo it to your right arm, remember it because it is a sure-fire way to make any woman fall in love with you .
Ladies, go and read this memory as well. This is what we are looking for. don't delude yourself and say that you just want to have fun. Believe me , i am a staunch supporter of the " lets just have a good time " club. but think about, all those guys we date just because we are looking for some fun, they aren't the ones that are in our dreams, right ? At least not the dreams where you feel real love, not just lust; the dreams where you are on a beach, not just in a sweaty night club .
Ok , so today , i got kissed , you guys. Not really kissed , but you know our lips touched and everything . The weird thing it that we used to kiss all the time. Not on the mouth you understand, but on the cheek, the forehead, the nose. And he used to hold me so tight, but then we both got involved in other people, and we cooled off. So today, i see him at lunch, and he comes up and runs his fingers through my hair and i feel it all the way down my spine. And after school, i see him and i go over pretending to be sad and he gives me this huge hug. And we are standing there, right in front of two of our mutual guy friends and he swoops in and smacks me on the lips. Then, he was like " we should do that more often now that we are both single again" . And i just blew it off, because im not going to discuss this with two of our friends standing right there. it would be all over school in a matter of hours. Plus, im not quite sure what he wants. Is he saying he wants a relationship, where we date and see where that takes us or does he just want a make-out partner that is more conveniently located than his last girl? because if its the latter , i dont think im interested. Then he says " we never did make out , you know" and i think he's totally kidding, but then his lips are touching mine again, and he's not just wanting a little. That boy had a clear goal, and the only reason i didn't respond was because i had no idea about my breath situation and i wasn't going to make out with him for the first time standing next to our two guy friends, with my dad about to drive up any second and have bad breath, nope not a chance.
K, next topic, are you guys still with me? Am i still pretty ? Cute ? Sexy? Hott? am i ? i just don't know. i keep asking people and they say of course i am, but they dont look me in the eye. Why is that ? Are you guys lying to me? Why do i always think i need to be stronger, smarter blonder, skinnier, tanner, more toned? Maybe its because i hurt my foot and i haven't been able to work out in a week. God, being a girl is just soo frustrating!
So, you know how you can't wait to turn 18 for a couple of reasons? Here are mine: finally, my penchant fr dating older guys won't be such a bad thing anymore. ill finally be able to vote for myself , instead of having to sway my parents into voting for me. And, i will be able to live with anyone i want. But, the thing is now i still feel like i don't live with anyone anyways because nobody talks to me. I feel like i live in a bubble of bubble gum.
theres soo much i have to say soo, im going to go and write many many songs bye