hiding
this MIGHT be one of those sappy entries but oh well, i have not been updating lately so this is an exception. i'm trying to hide this as i type because i'm at work and this isn't allowed. i have nothing to do right now, an extreme from a few months ago when everything at work wasy busy busy. i'm not allowed to read during downtime here, i guess because i'm not really allowed to have downtime. that wouldn't be productive.
i'm really happy right now. things are good. my hair is getting long. i drink a lot of water. i like my body. i'm trying to figure out what i will be. i talk to myself in my head on my way to work ( i walk to work ) and i said to myself yesterday i need to start reminding myself that my job is not who i am but it is what i do. but i would love to be who i am and make money at what i do.
i am eating yogurt.
i stick out here. i'm very "city" compared to people around me. and i would love to live in a city instead of here, although it's really beautiful here. but i need people, thought, stimulation. the plan is philadelphia...hopefully within the next several months, or at least by dec (when my lease is up.) i want to be with danielle and have a good job and make more money. i'd like to get certified to teach yoga at some point, but i think i need more discipline first and learn more about myself. i know this much: i hate sitting in front of a computer all day. i wouldn't mind doing it part of the day, but not 8 hours. i just need a change.
yesterday i realized i'm pretty much a secretary. it's not a pleasant thought but it's an honest one. except a secretary is probably allowed to read during downtime so i might be worse-off than a secretary. sigh, sigh, sigh.
it's friday...sometimes i realize i might have jumped the gun on the whole getting a "real" job thing when i say each friday, "thank GOD, that took about a month." is that what it's supposed to be like? i think it's my shoulders talking, they're crying out in pain right about now.
tomorrow i'm going to a ashtanga yoga workshop (2 whole hours!) classes are 1 hr 15 min so this is going to be a real treat. and a very capable and patient woman is teaching it, who also teaches my favorite yoga class at the studio i go to. this is one thing i will miss when i go to philly. but there are other studios and other wonderful and capable teachers.
then, tomorrow night, nicki and i are hanging out which should be fun/interesting/a drunk mess. we're going to an 80s party that some of her friends are having. i'm going to make myself be social and fun. i think we're watching Pretty in Pink beforehand to "get ready." eh, it's a much needed night with a good friend.
i don't know how to "look busy" here. i'm a pretty organized person so if i'm not working on something i put it away or in aside in a neat pile. there's only so much gum i can chew and bananas i can eat to stay busy. i already read the paper. get this-some Millersville University student was not given her degree in education due to a "drunken pirate" pic of herself on her myspace...she was given an ENGLISH DEGREE (i'm insulted) INSTEAD. they said it wasn't professional of her, and she is suing the school or something. why didn't they just tell her to make her page private? i'm done with lancaster county.
is it friday night yet?
i'm really happy right now. things are good. my hair is getting long. i drink a lot of water. i like my body. i'm trying to figure out what i will be. i talk to myself in my head on my way to work ( i walk to work ) and i said to myself yesterday i need to start reminding myself that my job is not who i am but it is what i do. but i would love to be who i am and make money at what i do.
i am eating yogurt.
i stick out here. i'm very "city" compared to people around me. and i would love to live in a city instead of here, although it's really beautiful here. but i need people, thought, stimulation. the plan is philadelphia...hopefully within the next several months, or at least by dec (when my lease is up.) i want to be with danielle and have a good job and make more money. i'd like to get certified to teach yoga at some point, but i think i need more discipline first and learn more about myself. i know this much: i hate sitting in front of a computer all day. i wouldn't mind doing it part of the day, but not 8 hours. i just need a change.
yesterday i realized i'm pretty much a secretary. it's not a pleasant thought but it's an honest one. except a secretary is probably allowed to read during downtime so i might be worse-off than a secretary. sigh, sigh, sigh.
it's friday...sometimes i realize i might have jumped the gun on the whole getting a "real" job thing when i say each friday, "thank GOD, that took about a month." is that what it's supposed to be like? i think it's my shoulders talking, they're crying out in pain right about now.
tomorrow i'm going to a ashtanga yoga workshop (2 whole hours!) classes are 1 hr 15 min so this is going to be a real treat. and a very capable and patient woman is teaching it, who also teaches my favorite yoga class at the studio i go to. this is one thing i will miss when i go to philly. but there are other studios and other wonderful and capable teachers.
then, tomorrow night, nicki and i are hanging out which should be fun/interesting/a drunk mess. we're going to an 80s party that some of her friends are having. i'm going to make myself be social and fun. i think we're watching Pretty in Pink beforehand to "get ready." eh, it's a much needed night with a good friend.
i don't know how to "look busy" here. i'm a pretty organized person so if i'm not working on something i put it away or in aside in a neat pile. there's only so much gum i can chew and bananas i can eat to stay busy. i already read the paper. get this-some Millersville University student was not given her degree in education due to a "drunken pirate" pic of herself on her myspace...she was given an ENGLISH DEGREE (i'm insulted) INSTEAD. they said it wasn't professional of her, and she is suing the school or something. why didn't they just tell her to make her page private? i'm done with lancaster county.
is it friday night yet?