WOOO HOOO
Ok so I've been feeling pretty good the past couple of days, I met someone that is just soo totally awsome and we have this wonderful connection that is kinda weird sometimes. Kinda like I've known him forever even though we've just met. Memphis seems to like him as well and he is great with him! He came over the other night to keep me company while Kat and some others played D&D, which I would like to add is a REALLY long fucked up game, he is sooo sweet. When he left we got online and chatted till the like 5:30 in the morning, he made me a nick name, Kai'Seran, which I'm told is elven for a female newborn star, isn't that too cute?? Then he came over yesterday and hung out with us all day, it was great!!! He is the affectionate type, which I'm totally not used to (but I could get used to it) and OH MY GOD, he has these really great full lips!! Needless to say he is a great kisser!!
Kat made some kick ass chicken parmesan for dinner last night and he was the ONLY one who took his plate back to the kitchen. By the way, some one please remind me that the next time I feed him beef and bean burrittos to give him some gas-x on the side lol sorry sweetie I just had to!! OK so anyways after dinner Kat, Micheal, Andrew and I watched "The Cell" which is always a good movie. He is such a good person to cuddle with!! Then Micheal went to bed and the 3 of us stayed up talking and they played Super Mario Bros or something like that. LOL Kat has some fucked up stories!! So then Kat decided to go to bed and for the first time we were left alone together. I was starting to feel all nervous like a little high school girl again, but I like the butterflies that he gives me, and the weird part is I'm like totally comfortable around him, I didnt even put on make up and I was still in my pj's when he came over and he said that I was still cute, awwwww!! So anyways we stayed up and talked and watched "The whole 9 Yards" which I dont think either of us paid much attention to hehehe. He had court today at 9 so he ended up leaving bout 7ish. I hope he does ok today since he hasnt had much sleep.
Now for the down side of things. I am getting scared. I just know some how Im going to fuck this all up, I always do. I tend to doom things to failure even though I dont mean to. I finally found someone "perfect" and I just know that I'm gonna freak out and screw it all up. And it is sooo hard to not get attached to him. It is soo like a movie to me right now, to good to be true so I'll end up pulling away (or pushing him away) so that I dont get attached or hurt (or for that matter hurt him), I can see it already. WHY DO I DO THIS??!!!! Ok some body just kick me in the ass now so I dont have to later. A friend told me once that she has seen me do it soo many times and she thinks I do that because I feel like I dont deserve to be happy. Maybe thats it, but I'm gonna cross my fingers (or tuck my thumbs in lol) and hope I dont fuck this up because I REALLY like this guy. Any advise would be great!!
Well Im gonna go wake up Kat and hop in the shower so that we can FINALLY go do some laundry. Oh ya by the way, a pop can DOES NOT even serve him justice.
I like that when you do that right therre, lick your lips when you're talking it makes me starrre.
So have a good day and be safe in this shitty snow stuff.
Tiffani
Kat made some kick ass chicken parmesan for dinner last night and he was the ONLY one who took his plate back to the kitchen. By the way, some one please remind me that the next time I feed him beef and bean burrittos to give him some gas-x on the side lol sorry sweetie I just had to!! OK so anyways after dinner Kat, Micheal, Andrew and I watched "The Cell" which is always a good movie. He is such a good person to cuddle with!! Then Micheal went to bed and the 3 of us stayed up talking and they played Super Mario Bros or something like that. LOL Kat has some fucked up stories!! So then Kat decided to go to bed and for the first time we were left alone together. I was starting to feel all nervous like a little high school girl again, but I like the butterflies that he gives me, and the weird part is I'm like totally comfortable around him, I didnt even put on make up and I was still in my pj's when he came over and he said that I was still cute, awwwww!! So anyways we stayed up and talked and watched "The whole 9 Yards" which I dont think either of us paid much attention to hehehe. He had court today at 9 so he ended up leaving bout 7ish. I hope he does ok today since he hasnt had much sleep.
Now for the down side of things. I am getting scared. I just know some how Im going to fuck this all up, I always do. I tend to doom things to failure even though I dont mean to. I finally found someone "perfect" and I just know that I'm gonna freak out and screw it all up. And it is sooo hard to not get attached to him. It is soo like a movie to me right now, to good to be true so I'll end up pulling away (or pushing him away) so that I dont get attached or hurt (or for that matter hurt him), I can see it already. WHY DO I DO THIS??!!!! Ok some body just kick me in the ass now so I dont have to later. A friend told me once that she has seen me do it soo many times and she thinks I do that because I feel like I dont deserve to be happy. Maybe thats it, but I'm gonna cross my fingers (or tuck my thumbs in lol) and hope I dont fuck this up because I REALLY like this guy. Any advise would be great!!
Well Im gonna go wake up Kat and hop in the shower so that we can FINALLY go do some laundry. Oh ya by the way, a pop can DOES NOT even serve him justice.
I like that when you do that right therre, lick your lips when you're talking it makes me starrre.
So have a good day and be safe in this shitty snow stuff.
Tiffani