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well, it's been a pretty long time since i've updated. i've been working late pretty much every night since i've started. it kinda sucks but then i like it. anywho. my life is pretty crazy right now. it's so complicated i don't even know how to begin to explain it. i feel like everybody's changing including me and i don't like it at all. the soap opera is growing very old and i don't know how much longer i can take living in it. my love life is as sucky as ever. the one guy that gives me butterflies is someone that is so far out of reach. which it doesn't matter anymore because i quit. i'm through with guys for a while..i need to focus on what is really important in my life. it seems like everybody is breaking up and it makes me lose the little hope that i have. shew, i go to the doctor tomorrow and i really dread it. i've been so hateful here lately, so moody. i'm not sure whats the matter. i don't understand. i just need time and space from people i guess. i need another spring break where i can sit at home by myself watching episodes of one tree hill. that would make me extremely happy, but then when the week ends my problems will be there waiting for me. i don't know what i'm saying. i'm going to bed.