Oct 11, 2004 10:10
yesterday night i figured why im having some much trouble
its only because im very much insecure about my relationship w/ my girlfriend
its stems from the passing of my father and also to the neglect of my mother
so im very much attached to her so much but its hard because im really
trying not to fracture anything but the fear of failure exists
i can only keep on trying because i still on my feet but i still exist on my knees
asking for hope...i got to say over the short amount of time ive know her
shes brought a perpective in to my life...ive never had someone who is so caring
and very much thoughtful like...her but i know in her it might not last
thats somewhat fair but painful...
i could i imagen the conflicts im going to have with my heart and my thoughts
because i really love this girl...so im just struggling this moment but im sure that
someone up there will inspire me to say what my heart is struggling with
but for now i die in no ones arms...but my own
i love sara....