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[precious_sk8er]

this weekend i learned alot about myself, and others. I trully dont know where we went wrong. We fight so much its uncalled for, we both do stupid stuff to cause these fights. Yes i did somthing i wasent suppose to, but you were also telling another girl to come over while i was upstairs in your bed with a migrain, that hurt! This weekend made me realize i will never be happy with someone eles untill i am happy with myself. and well that might take alot of time. I still cant understand why things turned out this way, i wasent properly medicated and he was to fast to snap. Friday was forever amazing and that is the memory i will always cary of us... I will hold that memory tight and in my heart forever, but the rest of it i have to let go. I no longer wanna cry. I know i love you because they say love hurts and well im beyond hurt. I drove home last night for three hours crying my eyes out... this morning i puked and im officaly numb... i dont know when i will bounce back. maybe tomorrow maybe in a week. who know. im so hurt and torn im in complete disbelife that this all happend. this weekend was suppose to be amazing, we were suppose to be amazing. but we are the farthest thing from. just remember your touch and kisses will always give me butterflys. good luck to you in life. i pray you get everything you want and that you are trully happy. ill always love you. but for now i have to focus on myself, and making myself better.

and i wanna thank my mom sister dave and natalie.
-my mom for being there and trying to protect me when she knew this would happen but yet she still supported me on going.
-my wifey for talking to me threw everything all the time.
-my sister and dave for listing to my cry histaricly. and directing me back home last night.

you people are amazing to me and i count my blessing for you all everyday.