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somethings got to give.
i know i was put on this earth for a
reason but i havent figured out why yet...
i had my life planed out moving to pittsburgh
and going to AIP its been the plan for god
knows how long... well idk about this whole
college thing now. school isent really for me
maybe trade school or somthing i like hands on
things... high school isent that bad. but all
this seinor shit is gay its so much money...
they are going to charge me 40 dollers for an
all nighter thing... yeah ok BLOW ME.
i wanna travle and see this country more, see
what its all about dig deeper then the surface...
even when i have somthing good in my life there
is always a glinch. yeah i know nothing in life
is perfect but it seems everyone has somthing that
is close to and im far from...
opie asked me today "DO YOU EVER LET YOURSELF BE HAPPY?"
and WELL...i didnt really know how to answer. nothing
is ever good enough for me. i dont know why.
SEE with opie i like him alot and he likes me too. we
have somthing good. but this distance is harsh.
his life is so crazy and on the go now that it kinda
gets to me. hes moving in to the FBM HOUSE in BINGHANTON NY
in APRIL and that means a house full of boys that RIDE BMX
and DRINK.... ALOT... im scared it can only get worse from
here but he has faith it will be ok. so i have to trust him<3
i dont wanna stay in michigan any longer then i have to
after highschool. but i wish i knew where i was going...
then i would have the motivation to get a job and save
up ever penny posible... but i dont ...
where to live where to live...
oh and my knee is progressingly getting worse as the days
go on i think i have another doctor appointment friday...
it took me like 5 mins to get down the stairs this morning...
lame as fuck it sucks and hurts so bad...
BUT...
who am i to complain about life. i guess im selfish sometimes.
i have a roof over my head 2 parents that love me and grand-
parents that would give me the world on a silver platter if
so possible... i have food to eat. to much at times.. and friends
that care about me unconditionaly.
iv been riding alot latly too. getting back into things. mainly
if im going to be staying at the FBM house soon ill need to
prove myself alittle bit lol<3333
and little lauren is getting me a job at an ice cram parler...
so i can start saving up...
i wanna be in ohio more then you know.
things coming up...
18th birthday
graduation
cancer of the mouth ... just aint cutting it.
i know i was put on this earth for a
reason but i havent figured out why yet...
i had my life planed out moving to pittsburgh
and going to AIP its been the plan for god
knows how long... well idk about this whole
college thing now. school isent really for me
maybe trade school or somthing i like hands on
things... high school isent that bad. but all
this seinor shit is gay its so much money...
they are going to charge me 40 dollers for an
all nighter thing... yeah ok BLOW ME.
i wanna travle and see this country more, see
what its all about dig deeper then the surface...
even when i have somthing good in my life there
is always a glinch. yeah i know nothing in life
is perfect but it seems everyone has somthing that
is close to and im far from...
opie asked me today "DO YOU EVER LET YOURSELF BE HAPPY?"
and WELL...i didnt really know how to answer. nothing
is ever good enough for me. i dont know why.
SEE with opie i like him alot and he likes me too. we
have somthing good. but this distance is harsh.
his life is so crazy and on the go now that it kinda
gets to me. hes moving in to the FBM HOUSE in BINGHANTON NY
in APRIL and that means a house full of boys that RIDE BMX
and DRINK.... ALOT... im scared it can only get worse from
here but he has faith it will be ok. so i have to trust him<3
i dont wanna stay in michigan any longer then i have to
after highschool. but i wish i knew where i was going...
then i would have the motivation to get a job and save
up ever penny posible... but i dont ...
where to live where to live...
oh and my knee is progressingly getting worse as the days
go on i think i have another doctor appointment friday...
it took me like 5 mins to get down the stairs this morning...
lame as fuck it sucks and hurts so bad...
BUT...
who am i to complain about life. i guess im selfish sometimes.
i have a roof over my head 2 parents that love me and grand-
parents that would give me the world on a silver platter if
so possible... i have food to eat. to much at times.. and friends
that care about me unconditionaly.
iv been riding alot latly too. getting back into things. mainly
if im going to be staying at the FBM house soon ill need to
prove myself alittle bit lol<3333
and little lauren is getting me a job at an ice cram parler...
so i can start saving up...
i wanna be in ohio more then you know.
things coming up...
18th birthday
graduation
cancer of the mouth ... just aint cutting it.