Sometimes things just suck
I was in such a good mood today, and then all of a sudden everything just seems to hit a wall. I mean i was perfectly fine and then i go over to jen's. We start to work on the lip sync and we got some stuff done. but it got really confusing because people couldn't keep focused and there were so many conflicting things. I mean, people could not just focus on the one thing we're practicing. Some people were just like, oh let's do this here, and let's do that there, and i'm like ahhhh! just stay focused on the part we're doing now! And then nilima tells me that supposedly tim chen wants to kick my ass. i mean what the hell. it's gotten to the point where things like that are just ridiculous. i could really care less what people think about me, i'm over it, i'm tired of trying to be this person that everyone likes. i mean, people have a problem with me, and i didn't even do anything to them, really, just grow up. Do u really think being mad at me is gonna solve anything? so for everyone who is mad at me, i'd say i'm sorry, but i'm not, so i'm not gonna say it. If you have a problem, it's gonna be u that figures it out.
So then i get home after the practice and what not. And i swear to god that no one is in a good mood. And I don't wanna sound mean or anything because i know sometimes people are just in bad moods. Things happen that make them upset, i'm not going to ask them to pretend to be happy when they're not. i've just noticed that it sucks when all your friends are unhappy because there is no positive energy there, so it makes me unhappy. it just really sucks. So now i am sitting here on my computer, listening to incredibly depressing music and feeling miserable. this is really funny because i just noticed this about someone else and it pissed me off. lol, i'm such a hypocrite, but hey, fuck it, i'm enjoying myself.
i love to help my friends, i mean, i really do, and i'm not unhappy with them for telling me that they're upset because i would rather have someone unhappy then have someone pretending to be happy when they're really not. i'm really excited though! I get to go to San Diego on Saturday!!!!! woohoo!! finally, i needed a break from everything. And i get to have fun there, and then i get to come back and Aaron's gonna be in town. so i'm just looking forward to the end of this week. practice will be over, and i'll be able to relax and have fun for a few days. And then i can come back and deal with everything again, so that's good.
In conclusion, lol. I believe that a lot of people need to just lighten up and get over the problems they have with people. i know i'm gonna look back at this and say, damn, i was upset, and maybe have wished i didn't say some things, but hey, i'm not gonna beat around some fuckin bush because people can't deal with what they dish out. I really wanna see some people again, and i'm really excited now. I'm in a glass case of emotion!!! ahhhhhhh! lol, i'm such a dork :p, well i guess i'm off now, i can't think of anything else to say. oh yeah! i went to the movies with Lindsey the other day, it was such a kickass time, we just hung out and then we went to a drive in. i'd never seen a drive-in before, so that was a lot of fun, well now it's really late, and i'm really getting tired. Maybe that's why i'm kinda upset, hmmmm, oh well, sucks for some people. lol. I can be such a bitch sometimes, lol. Well i'm out, i'll see y'all later! i love you and i miss you jane! byeeeeeeee!